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guess..

2005-10-15T02:28:00.000+08:00

luv being in tis biz, gt to learn tt money arent easy to earn either it`s diff to earn , it`s e way u tink n e effort made. no matter how peeps view mi, even they`r my close n loved one other than my surroundinf peeps, they aren`t gona change my passion in tis biz. all i hope is to be able to earn frm them is their understanding n of coz support, be it be moral or by action.

it`d been lyk 1mth when i last drop a feeling here in my blog. guess i neglected my close frens n family but at e same tym, i made some cool fren in work. i c e meaning of life here. if u were to ask mi, i would onli say tak a second look for wat u`ve done, n tak one more step ahead to predict ur future. is tis all u wan??? TIME TO MAKE A REFLECTION! lolx

well, my sch hols gotta end in a 1mth tym. gt to do my best to prove to myself n to all.

thought today `ve been a hard n bad day, guess i``m blessed wif those capable n caring one to show mi e concern n e encourage i`m seeking for.

discuss over wif my fren abt BGR matter. was wondering if i`m reali in id of a bf? well, mayb yes, may no. but falling in luv cant be prevented coz my hart arent made of steel. i c wat i wan, n but i seek for in a person, guess i had met e right person. there`s no ans to it. guess it`s nt at tis moment. but even if it`s , i`m be glad to noe abt it coz i`m still a human being.

eve

2005-09-04T12:13:00.000+08:00

gosh, cant believe 1week of revision week is abtr to end n tml is juz csa paper! argh!
juz return from bk

couldnt concentrate at hm at night when family are watching tv, volume was loud!
went off to revise wid tt 2 babes.

funni incident happened juz nw

was studying wif van n lene on e same table. hear water dripping sound. discover juz above e table that`s near to mi, water r leaking frm there. e guy below e aircon was lyk walkking away. juz nw, tis guy`s son came into e scene,
he said: `daddy, raining izzi?`

WAHAHA, tt boy is so cute!
haha

after awhile, e water was pouring down big.
e whole table is filled wif water n e ground is all wet. bad.

van seem better now, we ran abt for toilet, food during revision break.
eastpoint mall is abt to close.
want jolli bean so much but when we went down to B1, it`d already close.

we left when bk have to close, lene`s dad fetched her hm,leaving us in cheers
she`s hungry, she bought a choco cheesecake frm cheese n choc milk. ALL CHOCOLATE!
chocolate make peeeps more happy!
:)
well, i went off to buy mocha ice cream. bad. taste awful! wun b buying tt again.

had a nice short chat wif van b4 we head for home.
she`s nw more cheerful. i`m relieved.

cant it juz b better for mi

2005-09-01T11:59:00.000+08:00

woah!
well, woke up late, doubt i`ll going down to east spring. i miss e teachers there, MR chew especially.
no 1 frm 4e1 asked if i`m going, well, guess i`m forgotten. :(

meet up wif van n lene to study in sch. bad day!
raining n raining. tt`s all.

van seem to be suffering frm depression. i hope she`ll be fine soon.
she`s not e normal her today. no more simle but force simle frm her. she`s nt behaving lyk nut but juz a dull plain expression frm her face at all times

get contact wif siow wen. gt to noe her past relationship stuff, guess it`s truly unfair for her to suffer such misery. it`s her bday today! didnt noe till van remind mi. argh! wat a fren m i?
haha, she sound hapi nw...

if onli i went back to sch, if onli i remb all my fren. i wun be here missing them..

cSA

2005-08-26T12:18:00.000+08:00

wee. waiting to go off for CSa tutorial. mr bingo!

haha... tink i`m gotta miss his blurness. so blur!

hha... dun laugh( coz i noe i sound 2pid).

waiting for ger lunch later wid e awim gurls. :)

tink we r going out of sch for lunch.

i felt kind of down. today`s e last day whereby e klass attend klas together.

althought e bond tt i had wif e clique earlier on had gone beyond sight, i still feel for e klass as a whole. to tink tt we had our lunch at e bench outside e mensa. i tink tt`s pretty fun! wondering will dere b another lunch gathering for us?

i`m nw nt making ani effort to hav lunch wif my klassmate. i feel hapi to c them bond together. but......... as i say, today is e last day...

woah! it`s her day

2005-08-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

woah, today seem so dead until i meet van n charlene..

econ lecture included tutorial which last for 1.5 hr in total which i could say it`s kind of fast.

gt to gif van a big surprise. e chocolate brownies cake cant wait to b presented in front of her. well, gotta get sum frens gathered ard her, mak sure she feel us.

well, things didnt go as planned

movie was nt so gd which i expected.
after movie, i rushed hm 2 get e cake, but due to sum communication break down, van lost her temper.
i cried a little, n mind u! it`s her bday today n y m i crying on her big day?
later, when everything is settle b/w mi n van, we changed our venue to east point to hav e dinner. lene cried soon. again! it`s due to communication breakdown again.

afterall, it`s fine. dinner was full n nt so bad in thai sakura.
we settled down in starbuck for a cup of frappe mocha n den bday song session
it`s kind of pathenic coz there`s onli mi n lene there to sing for van. well, did enjoy lighting up e candles in between e windy night. moon was so round n bright up e sky. den we ate e cake. i felt appreciate though earlier part of e evening was real saddening for mi.

gt to meet QQ n he looked shag though kind of smart in his formal attire to work.

lene n i ate 3 pieces of cake n we were so bloated.

i lyk today but i dun reali lyk e way van say things sumtym...

well, HAppY biRThday my honey Van...

monday,1st day of e week

2005-07-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

purple long-sleeve top, black skirt and 1 red heel....
this`s my outfit for presentation...
well, thank to darius, he made out my mind to wear such outfit:)

was screwed up and panicked for nt having a visual aid..
was real cool nervous.
well, did drool over my klass guy esp alstone, vv model air..:)
winston was kind of panick over his appearance( pat on his shoulder)
every1 look smart!
woah, feeling better today but my sore throat isnt getting better still...

meet up wif derru n head for town after worrying abt nt having enuff coins for his bus fare....
went for ice cream wif derru, but b4 tt, went to look up for jonjon, but too bad, his shop in far east close down le... hhmmm, wanted to ask for his no. as i lost his contact in previous hp..

2 scoops of ice cream n large waffles would last mi till supper tym, kind of bloated... same for derru too althought he bought a large waffle wif 1 scoop. had a great tym of taking pic of him advesting his waffles ice cream as well as voda voda mineral water...
well, shall update... kind of wow impact...gee

went to look up for my shoes in talking hall in taka..didnt get my shoes, mood dampen but thank to derru, he was trying to cheer mi up... thank derru...:)

went home,felt so tired, gt to finish my biz acct tutorial b4 i go online...

was on fone wif van for awhile, n i felt so happy for her coz i tink tt she found a real gd guy for her... :)

well, hope for a better tml for mi n every1..

****everything is fading... yes, it`s...
*** i noe u``r avoiding mi...
**i`ll juz let it b
* coz i c no meaning left....

horrible day...

2005-07-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

wake up in e morning n quickly joint down e thingy to b complete today... i`m kind of getting old, losing my memory as time pass...

thing to b complete.
csa tutorial printout
POM tutorial
POM project
biz acct tutorial
marcoecon tutorial

woah, i did complete all despite tv watching n slacking n stuff... i mis my fren...:(
nt e tym to shop or go out, shall stay back to study...exams r juz ard e corner..

***without luv, life is boring***

shouldn`t expect much ...

*** hope n rebirth***

did lot of heavy tearing( imean crying of coz)
watch windstruck.
realise luv is can b so impt n stuff...
tt show`s simply toucing...n sweet...
argh...

my babes,van,lene n 6230

2005-07-23T22:41:00.001+08:00

made my way down to 201 for a fone, nokia 6230, a 2nd hand wif 3mth warrantly,plan n line.
tis wouldnt b possible if my 2brothers werent there.. both came one after another...i`m touched...
thank u so much, but i felt gulity after making such a trouble for they..

went to sch to meet van n lene for revision n doing of my hw...
went over to century for dinner and coffee in starbuck for short revision.

sumthing is holding mi back, well,felt tt`s a gd thing.. i didnt wan to gif in all my feeling in 1 go, coz no 1 worth them...

i noe i`m gotta get hurt...

damn!!!!

2005-07-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

damn it! lose my hp!!!

damn! shldn`t hav went to shop for my top for presentation!!!
EEEE!!!!!wish tt bitch hu pickpocketed suffer frm being NUN!!! shit her!!!

short of cash to buy a new fone...
did cry on fone when i was on call wif van...
family! no 1 wanted to help mi out...

well, upon seeing mi in tear on fone, 2nd brother wen to 201 to sign a fone n sign for mi but too bad i didnt bring my IC wif mi. gt to go back to sign up for it...

well, losing my hp mean losing all my contact wif peeps... omg! how m i going to get every single contact back... sobsob..tt`s simply too bad... haiz....

damn tt bitch....

another life in e world

2005-07-19T02:04:00.000+08:00

juz when i was talking to andy, c1`s fren, doggy mum was there behaving weird in her cage...
now, e butt out 1st, tis time is more challenging. gt to pull `it` out 1st to let to breath,if nt it will tak in e water, affecting e way it breath which could b fatal...

luckily, i manage to pull it out.. well,it`s a she,i`m happi
i have to force the water she took in earlier on, she reacted to my shaking...
she seem fine. once again, i tied den cut his cord. she`s slimer than her brother,longer as well.

he`s born at 1.05am
she`s born at 1.55am

dog mum is nw more anxious then b4. she look excited and kind of shock. she doesnt noe wat to noe .but she licked them both in e warmest motion...

tis is luv...tis is how she welcome the 2new life.. e new mum

new life

2005-07-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

wow! tt dog is juz too noisy...

tear off those water bag, trying to pull e whole puppy out, it slowly breath in it`s 1st grap of air on earth... its cry, shows tt he`s alive...
she move as i rubbed her with a newpapers( tt was wat i have)

i was panicked den relieved.
new life begins.

her mum wasn`t paying much attention. she was curious of tt new life...
tis is then e bond...
she licked him to clean him well. she lov him....

here i`m ,being vv happy...ys, i`m...

simply summer relaz

2005-07-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa wif van n lene.. tried on my voodoo beach short... WEE!!!
felt so gd in e new bikini!!

sad day upon seeing constructiin site in sunset bay...:(

went to bedok interchange for lunch, was kind of disgusted after seeing a old man`s dirty act... GOSH!!! tt`s EEeeee...

went over to starbuck for a strawberry drink.. simply summer!!!

went hm n slept for hrs, haiz, juz couldnt made it for jy n kc chalet... bet i`m missing e fun!!!
sobsob

wat a nag in e family

2005-07-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

revision in airport today was quite nice...:)
breakfast wif mervyn was great,gt to taste hot cake again!miss ta so much!

madaline was late as usual..
winston,wasn`t told tt we r meeting at 10am,well, he came into mac at 1pm.
thank to mac, my doubt in tml test is clear!

had our lunch in staff canteen,well after tt, cow brought us to his `plaace`
lyk tt place though it was lyk kind of windy.
madaline showed us her new toy,or shld i said her fren?
it`s a sheep tt record down voice n stuff, cow was playing wif it
i could say it`s a fun stuff!!

madaline n i actuali wan to praise one of e cleaner in e toilet coz her service is simply more than a cleaner. she`s friendly, being very polite n tis is e kind of person tt airport wun mind having... but when we went into e toilet to find out her name, suppose she knocked off frm work. erm, there`s always other pple who will praise her..:)

gt to noe tt sentosa trip wid babes(van n lene) r nw cancelled,simply too disappointed to b angry or mad at them, mayb tue isn`t juz e day for us to hang up in e beach.mayb sumtym , i shld tak thing too seriously...

went to best denki to look out for singtel student plan,wanted it sign up for it,so i went hm to discuss wif dad. wat a disappointment. discussion wif dad always doesn`t end wid a smile... e phone i wanted he didn`t agree. i doubt he`ll fork in any money abt mi having a plan wif a new phone, i`m all by myself.

sis is nw a nag at hm. After giving each other cold shoulder, mum n i hasn`t been sitting down to talk properly. simply she nag when it`s favoured. mum nw pass her message to sis to pass to mi, 2nd generation nag. damn, pls! i dun gif a damn! juz shut up. i onli noe tt i`m by myself though i living under e same roof. i nid no attention coz it`s nv been there n being enough thr tis 17 yrs...

juz wan to live wif purpose of life.( thank to cow for asking tis qn of wat`s m purpose of life)

i wan to b hapi

well, i`m nt going to gif a damn to those nag to watever 1st or 2nd generation nag or watever.
i onli noe i`m alone. no family luv, thankful for e luv my friends hav been giving mi..
thank BLINK**

shopping wif e loverable!

2005-07-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

woke up in e morining in a dying mood... felt restless...
tried to revise for e coming paper, e last paper of coz, well its on monday when other peeps are enjoying their holiday...

didn`t revise much coz i was more of lyk slacking...
actualii was looking forwad to meet up wif muran n bong.. miss them so much!!
well, bong was late again!
wow! cool! bong n mi was in e red tops!!
babes were all wearing SKIRTS

2 tops frm forever 21
2 tops frm mango
1 simple black top for work frm gio....

ate sundae in anderson`s, thank to muran, we had a hard time to hav tt

hard tym= 1hr bus trip form far east to suntec + 0.75hr to reach anderson...

well, i simply enjoy hanging out wif them esp muran
miss her too much... she`s nw lyk a happy ger..

thank gers, i did hav a great tym wif u all...

food+ babes

2005-07-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

wow!

lunch wif jun wei wasn`t bad..but he kind of scare mi again!!!

meet up wif e 2 babes,van n lene...
went to buy sum fruits n vegetables, i planned to cook our dinner in lene place...( chicken stew)

carrots
chicken breast
celery
tomatos
onions

went to pool n taught van to swim, wat a cute ger she is...
well, i cant deny she`s a fast swimmer!!!

had a fun time wif them b4 e rain comes to disrupt us...
dinner after bath was great..
soup was average but fried rice cooked by e maid was nice, thought of having 2nd serving but i still hav e soup to drink..
mouth was itchy after dinner...

nice day,nice food n nice babes! muack!

nice dinner

2005-07-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

went to sch wif jeremy, my pri sch mate..
kind of hapi coz it`s been long tym we hadn`t a gd chat..
he seem fine n much taller!!!

paper today is lyk ... hmm, i`m nt going tell u...my result will reflect all my feeling...

meet up wif jy n kc gang today.. so happi!!! wee!!!

went for dinner wif con,jy,kc n e star for today`s dinner is JAMES!!

juju`s being so sweet,james receive a `bottle` of cookies, taste nt bad...:)

james had gt mor belly fats but he`s still same old james..he look punk today..:)

hmmm, wat a nice laughing session wif e gang today..:)

shall end here... gd luck to all

hm,e whole day

2005-07-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

was hm for e whole day..
n i`m lyk eating lot of stuffs, junk food!!!
wee, my belly is big...
miss training for swimming!!!

i`m revising,nt stepping out of hm..i`m so bored.. but books accompany mi..
miss all my fren.. miss miss miss...

do u all miss mi???:) / :(

1st day of semster test

2005-07-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

1st day of sem test...
i didn`t wish to tak abt e paper today..
i`m working hard, n yes, i`m working hard... ( plus slacking)

:)

study day 2

2005-07-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

meet up wif jasmine today for notes, she is so kind!!! a kiss for u jas! muack!
and yes, it`s alot of useful note!

rush down to tm starbuck to met up wif lene n van to revise again, was piss-offf by van for giving mi ap..well,she lost her temper again...

revise till 7plus..didn`t make it for dinner wif junwei..
kind of miss him again...
well, i`m controllingn taking up my socialising tym for studies...:( but it`s okie... it`s worthy..:)

i noe my abilty... i`m able to...

getting nervous n excited for tml paper.. scare.. e 1st paper...

maroeco! here i come!!!

:)

study day 1

2005-07-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

van shouted at lene today. i was shocked of coz...

van gona learn self-control!!
lene was behaving lyk norm.. she looked troubled...tried ways to cheer her up but impossible...

made our way to sch to revise for nxt week sems test
luckily i brough along matrix card if nt nt allowed into library. saw yy n jasmine!!! so nice of seeing them again in juz 11hr time.

i was visting e loo for many times, van!!! i was juz trying to cleanse my body la.. gee

saw mevyn too, but fear tt i call wrong pp, i didn`t call him...:(

went over to century square for dinner, wat a full carbo dinner!!!

went over to starbuck in tm, gt a drink n revise quite alot...
tt guy in counter was quite cute...:) lene n i both agree...:) a simple looking 1...

well, gt to focuz on my studies, i`m nt letting ani1 to hav e chance to belittle mi,coz i`m jam...:)

nice n sad??? impossible but possible

2005-07-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

i was so lucky to board e 1st bus home...

well, wat a day today!!

james was e cook for day, thank to him, gt a nice pasta frm him...

cake war in con hse...
gt to interact wif crystal!! ( con`s sis)
she is so interested in james!:) its nv too late when james come out frm NS!

a nice farewell song for james,composed by daming!

well,gt a name for con! DG

its digusting ger..
well,of coz it doesn`t sound nice to a girl but! listen up! where`s a reason behind..con`s nt behaving lyk a normal ger... haiz
hw m i gona change her for a better 1...
pls con!!! u gona change but of coz,it tak tym, jam gt faith in u, its all abt self-control!

gt a gd tym wif jasmine n yy... but gona say sori to my brothers today,kc n jy...
kind of less interaction wif them.. sori!!!

well,felt 2pid coz yy washed my hair today in con`s toilet! gee, i was laughing away, so ticklish!!!

for james, i did help him wash his hair, e kind of feeling is nice.. its lyk .. helping hubby to wash e hair, well ! HELLO! james is nt = to hubby...

sad thing was i was disappointed for sum scene i saw in con`s hse, his image was ruined!!!(DAMNED)

sad thing (2)
saw rotten alvin in bus.. well, i was acting ignorance!!!!
i simply dun gif a damn to wat i c, a #$% in front of mi..( well, i save a smile for a day!)

well, nice day, n a nice big belly i earn frm con hse... gee...

gona miss james...:)

down on my luck..

2005-06-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

ate a bad meal today though it`s SSooo heathly...( boiled vegetable + 2small boiled eggs for lunch)

i was too lazy to tak bus to sch so went down to meet madaline by taxi...
HELLO!!
i suffered under e sun for 10min wif occuppied cabs passing mi...

saw jason in PURPLE shirt today but didnt manage to c a `hi` to him,well i was rushing for lesson,stepped into e classroom at 1pm EXACTLY!

nini,pop-pop,mehmeh n mi!(piak piak) wore skirt and canvas today... sumhw nini called us e gang4...
madaline and C1 hit e cow during apel lesson today,well, tt gif a shock to e klass as well as ms ho!

after sch, went down to com lab to print out csa note for tml,but we were having a hard tym.
guess printer doesnt lyk us today? went to another lab to try our luck once again.
finally manage to print,but after marina left, i still gt to print pom note, was struggling wif tt...
JUZ THEN! baobao(shawn) appearred,he helped mi wif to print e notes out properly..well,sumtym i tink i`m a com idiot!

rush out out to meet jy, n kc...
mad eour way to design sch drama audition..well, they tried to pull mi in for tt,well,i`m celver!
i ran out to meet BONG!!!
on e way,DEs and jiaming bumped into mi... i was merely a fool to apologies without realising its them...

went to design sch for early dinner wif bong , n kenny(ting ex.)
surprised tt he`s in our sch!
wow, his manly imagine was ruined,he`s bit of......well i shldn`t say out...
RAN into` him` again! im quite happy...well, of coz i`m nt going to jump for joy!
well,crush is juz lyk a letter on e paper,was e write erase it, it fade away... juz gt tt kind of feeling...

didn`t eat much for dinner coz i wasn`t hungry at all..

went off wif bong n her fren to bedok reservior...
well, nice to noe them!! nice peeps actually!!

had a nice talk wif bong b4 i left for design sch...
miss e time wif bong....she looks so fine as norm!

i was merely too stress over e coming sem test, i noe i wun let myself down,but i m nt doing anything right to attain wat i`m able to....

finally gt to meet up wif jy and gang... jy was worried abt his performance during e audition,well,JY,it`s okie... juz tak it was a experience, juz dun repeat e mistake again ...

eventually,we seperated n headed for hm... on e way hm, i cancelled e swimming session wif haifz... i `m sori hafiz! i wasn`t feeling well...

gt hm, well, entered e toilet several times,stomach upsset,felt so weak.
hai~still gt to revise biz acct...

gt sum note down for revision,den went onlie to wait for kc to b online.
meanwhile,still planning for sum1`s bday tml...he`s gotta b SUM! tml!
wee,cant wait for tml!

work hard jam**

though its a bad day for u...

training? a late 1

2005-06-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

class was lyk normal today, laughters filled everydays...

madaline n 1 was hanging out after sch for our ccas to start, i went to c their training
purposely watch them till 6.45pm, den slowly made my way to swimming training, gave 2pid excuse of y i`m late...
hmm,training was hard but i tried to push myself...

dinner today was bad.... gt to encounted a coffee-woman wif attitiude... firstly thought she gt style but later discovered that she`s so rude to e customers...:)

well, saw a man throwing his plate of food away( on e floor) after a long tym.....

sem test is coming soon, and i`m still day-dreaming in clas... WAKE UP JAM***

sori ger

2005-06-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

gt melt by sum1 in e library..
well,afterall i was behaving lyk myself...
mervyn,eugene, and madaline was making fun of mi coz i made myself sound 2pid...
well, we did laugh alot... tt`s gd( excerising e facial muscles)

rush down to far east to hav sumthing,wee, gt a new bag today!!! thank u jy!!!

well, felt sinful coz jy was late for family dinner , well, he didnt` mak it for e dinner...

lov e bag s o much, a GREEN 1.. n big 1...tink i`ll b able to put stuffs n stuffs inside without carry big n small thingy on my hands...:)

SQUEEZE!!

2005-06-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

today`s training was like nuts...
but i luv it so much...

after training, coach made mi feel so 2pid..
aniway, fun part was tt qing sheng,mi, von, eugene,siyun... all 5 squeeze behind e back seat...
hello! 2 big sized guy, 3 others ger!
but coach was enjoying his seat in back seat...

well, hv our dinner in open air coffee shop...
well, juz i was enjoying my curry rice,there was a fight nearby..

2 drunken uncle fighting...
well, should i say is 1 hitting another...e other seem so helpless..

morale of story was tt nv drink when u cant drink, u will end up making a fool of urself...

back to training

2005-06-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

1st tym i brought food to sch to eat...

2multi-grain bread wif nutella!!

wee,taste nice

meet up wif van n charlene n fren...

miss them so much...

gave lene a great bday hug...:)

nw she`s older!

went training wif a heavy stomach coz gt salad in mensu1 wif them...

training was harder than ever...

nw,there`s 1 mor swimmer,mor powerful n mor competitive den ani girls in yr1!!!

felt lyk throwing out when i reached hm after dinning in hawker centre,had sichun spicy soup... taste average... gt e craving for choco waffle but there asn`t any bakery selling tt in tamp interchange....

sumhow felt tt van,lene r getting further frm each other,welll,shld i say i`m further frm them?

i dun wish to b lyk e past, e on-off-on-off period sux!!!

hate tt!

van,lene...if u all c tis entry, i reali dun wish to lose tis relationship,neither back to e past....

luv u tis 2 babes.....

shopping again? yesh...

2005-06-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

hw in e morning,
shopping wif sis,
meeting up wif jy n gang wif sis as well,
jy losing his wallet,felt sinful for tt,
sis bought a shirt,
i bought a skirt,
hunt for shoes for sis,
sis`s big leg`s too hard to find a suitable shoes,
visited jonjon`s shop,bought a uglydoll keychain frm him$14
gt charlene a bday present, brooch!
meet thenish,jonathon n yy,felt great to c thienish coz i have nt seen him for yrs!!
nice to meet jonathon,as well as his gf...
they look great..coz they `r awesome couples...

:)
nice day
nice life but end badly as well...
reach hm n always as norm, getting to c mum`s charcoal face...dislike it so much
sis`s starting to nag again...
gosh!
hwork is incomplete...

gosh! bday celebration!

2005-06-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

today was fun! mor than fun

new fren, tracy

con playingg vball

james being blur

shawn making his way to sentosa wif injured leg

vball on e beach

swimming in e sea frm shore to shore

saltwater in e eye

jy crying in front of e cake

having tis game for yy to mouth e cake to jy

jy playing wif e whipped cream

every1`s smile

rebacca`s presence

new fren ,new beach day....

tt`s all for today...so nice so great... muack!

baking in process....

2005-06-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

didn`t make it for training today coz my shoulder juz cant make it...waiting for it to recover totally so tt i could perform as usual without having any injuries....

went out for shopping of ingredient...
it`s jy bday tml...

cake is nw in e fridge..g t a hard tym putting e whole thing into e fridge..
it`s gotta b a surprise for him tml...

jams n con gt him a present...n tis cake is gotta b my presen for him...
decorating it was hard, whipped cream wasn`t firm,well, i skipped to plan b...

looking forward for tml sentosa beach day...

tennis

2005-06-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

tennis today wif winston n mervyn was fun..
i was laughing my head off for my own mistake...
felt so great to b under e sun again...

van n charlene as well as mi gt to noe a new fren today... kok haw!!! well,he wanted us to call him eric..

both of e babes gt themselves 2 tickets for tml`s jj concert...well, as for mi,couldnt go for e concert coz of tml`s training...

felt left-up n unwanted in family coz they went for gd great dinner when i didnt mak it wif them....

hurt,,

2005-06-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

right shoulder hurt so much since morning...hope it recover soon b4 swim meet
training was tougher though it ended earlier...
arms were weak,didn`t perform well,as norm...
gt mysself a skirt today!
a cream mango skirt....
i`m always shopping lyk no1`s biz..

sum1 gt to stop mi!!!
but i`m still hapi

hurt,,

2005-06-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

nice day which ended badly

2005-06-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

wat a day!
catch a movie wif mrDERRU...
he`s kind of nice guy..:)
lyk mi, he cook, lyk mi, he`s sporty

he jokes,he lame,well of coz he`s caring...
n he smile greatly in his hart...

monster-in-law was nice,did almost cried near e end of e movie,but of coz,i`m nt going to reali cry...
held back my tears as it was so touching... c e power of luv...

dinner in tcc wif derru was average...
i was so bad of telling him abt my workplace stuff,thin tt made him felt disgusted...
well, did enjoy making fun of him...but of coz, i dun mean real...

thank alot derru...

gt hm late,gt a scolding frm dad...
did cried at e end of day...
he didn`t gif mi a chance to xplain...
felt real down..
no 1 understand mi at tt pt of time... nice day which ended badly....

shopping again? yesh...

2005-06-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

finally gt my pay frm mr jack today on my 2nd trip to cv since yst...

its 200++ bucks...
went wif lee n haoxiang...
haoxiang was pissed off for nt having his pay despite 2 trips he had made...
lee was preparing himself for mr lawrence`s scolding...
well, mr law juz gave him his pay n tt`s all...

after getting my pay,went down to town to meet korkor james and jy ...
get to c eunic and juju...
bought 2 tops in check,a shop in heeren...
went ard shopping for my belt and their stuffs in fast east...
manage to buy my belt after taking sum neoprints...
we spent sum tym laughing our hart out in tt small machine,sound dumb?

met jasmine at e ard 9,went for hav sum ice-cream in swedsen...
EARTHQUAK!!!
wee, but onli jy,kor,jasmine as well as mi stayed behind for tt..sad...
but realise jasmine is such a nice WEEWEE cute ger....

tink ihave been spending juz too much on stuffs,g tto save!
wake up jam!
u aren`t a rich ger rite!!

wahha

shop shop

2005-06-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

gt myself 2 skirt...
1 swimming cap( yellow addias)

jy gt himself a anti-fog goggles...
bad jy din watch football match wif rebacca...
aniway,felt so pleased when i noe tt rebaccas tagging alone althought kc`s fren did too..
planned to buy 1 sport nice nice bag to put my swimming stuffs n book,so tt i dun hav to go back hm after sch b4 attending swimming training...
went back to bugis,nt surprisingly, we went back to e same stall as we went last sat...

tis tym round,food failed to taste as gd as e 1st tym.... such a disappointment...
haiz....

nice day wif u guys!
muack...

moiivvveee.....

2005-06-02T21:06:00.001+08:00

finished sch at 4pm, went down to tamp mall to catch a movie, dun worri, it`s a bunch of us going...

we watched madagascar..
nice funi show...well,did play sum pop-corn game wif eugene n mervyn b4 e show starts...

add non-animal food again..
well, it taste nt so bad as well....

seriously dun mind hav to eat non-animal stuff...:)

i want to b healthy!

realise i`m been gaining wt since poly start for mi...
gosh,wat m i suppose to do?
help!!!!!
sad.....

so sori shawn tt i break my promise of watching tt movie wif u...sori...:X

2005-06-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

almost drown

2005-06-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

played sum hide-and-seek wif shawn,baobao today,didn`t get to c him...

didn`t get to play tennis wif winston,adfi,eugene and mervyn...

gt a ride frm mervyn...

nice day,nice swimming training...
almost drown...but i lyk e struggle to live...was in e 4m pool...4m seem reali scary....

enjoyed a water ball game wif tis family after e tough training...how fun it`s....:)

nice dinning wif u all again...
cheese...

SWIM SWIM!

2005-05-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

gt to gif away my shift today in cv,all thanks to e swim team captain! late message!

well, juz lov my klass so much...
they r united!
yes,they r!no doubt!

went to e 1st swimming training wif jy...
felt real anxious,as it`d been such a long tym i swam in long big pool..

anyway,felt so great after swimming as i felt as shiok, kind of feeling tt i`d been feeling for e past 6 yrs...

regreted giving up on swimming during my childhood,if nt, i`ll as a good great 1 today...
nw,i gt to retrain again!

gt to c jun wei as well,rather shock,well, could see him often as he`s joining life-saving!
cheese....

ate sum stuff wid tis unfamilar swimmingg family in nearby hawker centre,food was average but i tink e peeps r nt bad...

shall c if they were awesome after sum trainings...

cant wait for nxt training to come...

shopping mates~they r great 1

2005-05-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

gt myself a thumbdrive at 65 buck,thank to jy n kc...they noe how to bargain..
felt dumb for nt knowing how to bargain for myself...
gt to taste sum vegetain lunch at sumwhere near sim lim square...( taste real GREAT)

went to get myself another PUMA stuff frm e same shop in fast east where i gt my PUMA wallet...
wee,nw i hav 2 same design but different stuff...3 cheers!

gt 1 white tank-top
ice-cream treat for myself as well as jy n kc...

i admit they r gd shopping fren althought they r guys...
simply dun mind shopping wif them nxt tym round...

**jy n kc!u tis 2 guys**

nw i real lyk u as my fren, u 2 are sunshine of my life,adding laughters n crappy jokes in my life...
thank lot

awlful!

2005-05-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

felt terrible today for rushing my time n leaving marina behind,i was walking at my fastest speed, kind of fed-up of anithing tt comes to my way...

dargon-boat ended later than we were told..
made sum noisy fren,
mistaken being twin wif sum1(obviously it`s not)
working as 1 in a 22person boat
sweating under e hot sun,
having my 4th  finger injuried,
cv`s once again encounting shortage of manpower...

i simply dislike tt coz their management nid to b mor flexible...

cv

2005-05-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

gt a ride frm mervyn...he look juz lyk sum1 who`s reali 21...
frm his back, i could see tt he`d lot to achieve,simply sum1 hu wun waste his life living...

work today was lyk norm...
felt great to work here again despite e bad pt of cv...
tried to avoid him, spoke to him in my coldest tone.. felt bad abt tt at e end of e day...
today was busy...
lots of guests,in-house guests esp...
i was e host of e day,but i was there at e host-stand most of e tym...
i was too helpful to help wif my mates...
lyk being there to help when peeps r busy...

felt so tired..
gt to turn in...
cant wait for tml`s dargon boat...
hope it`ll b a brillant 1...
cheese!

wishing for e day to come n...

2005-05-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

gosh! today was fun!

sentosa was simply mor than fun but oso hanging out wif e peeps in tp...

in my pink bikini,

crowd

trying out beach vball once again,

seawater,

hunks& babes

gt james as my brother

cant get to get derrick attention when he was playing e beach soccer

sun-burnt

geting shocked when i enter e ladies

bathing in e public in my bikini n bottom

making new frens

enjoying e sun,summer sun

hanging ard late in nite wif GL n frens in tamps

cant get to c thenish though we noe we r in sentosa...( he did saw mi)

gt to c garrick but doubt he remb mi

sorry for nt picking up n replying to van`s mag coz phone keypad is rather spoilt nw,gt to hav a new 1 soon...

hope tml will b a nice great WOah day

might b going down to sentosa tis coming sunday,cant get to go there again!

my new fren...

2005-05-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired
gosh! 1st day in banquet, supposely to b a great 1 but i was too tried...
i enjoyed though being looking pale..
wedding lunch buffet today! seem easy but stressed coz it`s juz my 1st day..
gt to work wif LEE

he seems nice.
he`s nw my new fren.
gt to noe lot abt him.
he`s sum1 wif lot of emotion in himself.
i told him my past as well as him...
gt to noe each other.
i c a long friendship between us.

:)
felt tt peeps in banq r much nicer than those in salth20 though salth20 do hav nice pple....

i c e world, wif lot of sides....
lots....
shedded sum tears when on confer wif van,lene
anyhow,it brought us closer...
hope we stay tis close 4 long...

gosh! fast!

2005-05-20T17:50:00.000+08:00

morning`s meeting wif c1 till hopping onto des`s dad car was lyk within a spilt second..
today`s activities is much better than yst`s...
dragoboat,biz sch winning n jam&hop as well as getting to noe mor fren make mi feel great till nw...
g tto c my timetable n LIEW! it wasn`t so bad afterall coz i gt to start sch at 1pm compare to van n lene,9am! :)
volunteer to b asst.class rep.
felt tt our class care person is as young as e class...
garbiel is always e 1 hu sneaked away quietly without us realising untill GL found out...
ever1 in my class is unique for way they r.. nice peeps!

tis tym round gt to dance wif neon, all 2pid kind of steps came out frm mi again...
gt mad wif van,she`s nt acting lyk norm her, but lyk a retard to mi, nt reacting to things tt seem dangerous...bad as i ignored her during e jam n hop...

all days n cheers n dance made mi so exhauseted but no1 seem to b able to replace...
kind of wore out but work is work...

everything seem to b moving faster than i could feel, juz months ago, i gt my result, nw i juz attended orientation by my biz sch... cool!
looking forwards for my sch life, no matter wat kind of campus life i get, i tink it`s always a new chapter in my life....

soon, e story shall begin in no times...
cheese!

1st day, new life

2005-05-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

almost late for orientation turn out to b very late for sch coz gt to wait fro frens...
1st day of orientation of sch was freaking scary...
gt into diff class n seperated frm fren...
didn`t now e 1 hu sat besides mee was e 1 hu had her 1st day in changi airport TNL..
she`s MADELINE!
gt to noe 1 of e male classmate used to work in cv as well!
such a small WORLD!
gosh, so mani peeps, fair, dark, tall n small...
g tto see so mani peeps i noe, my bball frens, ex sch fren, ex-collegues n etc...
everi1 seem shy towards each other but not for mi coz i cant wait to noe my going- to - be classmate.. ** jump jump**

fear hid well in my heart though i`m scare...

look frowards for tml`s
gt to c han wei, sum1 whom i havent seen for 3 yrs...such a long long tym...

things change as well as peeps...
she disappointed mi n she seem not to b aware of ta coz it`s nt impt to her at all coz i was all e way taken for granted...
nth to her...

new! but na nah

2005-05-14T23:21:00.000+08:00

a new ger in cv today, she doesn`t seem alrite.she dun seem to understand wat i told her.
sorri if i sux in directing pp in stuff i noe.
sori
work frm morning till night n i tink it`s kind of shoik!
well, juz gt back frm hm,it`s raining hard...

work seem to b hard on mi today, she seem to b takinf revenge on mi, felt her jealousy!
she`s jealous freako!
well, i`ll juz do wat i`m suppose to, scold mi if u wan, juz reflect wat kind of beings u r!

juz discovered tt i`ll misbehave when i `m tired..
juz misbehaved in fornt of e 2 chiefs wif thenish, so sori...

gt to reali behave esp when i`m sleepy...

!!!

tt bday boy!

2005-05-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

gt up early,looking forward for things tt arent there in e past.
was invited to attend yanto`s birthday `party`
meet up wif razak for steak n shop for bday present in town
ended up for having e steak, gt yanto a pant.
well, i wasn`t e 1 hu choose it but razak...
didn`t feel comfortable when i was out wif him, he was there making mi feeling uneasy n awkward.
seriously felt piss-off coz he doesn`t c mi as wat i c him, a motive in his mind made mi felt irritated, felt it thr e way he looked n talked to mi

`party` was bored n i was disturbed by tt bunch of childish guys.
pretended nth happen n was waiting miserably for cq`s arrival...
planned to gif yanto a big warm hug but seriously tink e stiff atmosphere didn`t welcome tt kind of stuffs...

seriously tink today`s a boring day....
:)
but it didn`t stop mi frm smiling!

woah! argh!

2005-05-11T21:25:00.000+08:00

feeling real sick n feverish nw, juz quarrel wif mum...
kind of piss off wif her...
she`s simply taking away my privarcy!

still tinking of lasy nite`s dance
went to tp orientation camp, dance througout e jam n hop..
love tt kind of shaking feeling wif fren,gt a wonderful esp when kai came to join us...
:)

gt to noe tt rumours abt mi n alan was there,well, simply dun bother .
but tink he`s rather a fun guy!opps!

van n lene including mi all danced n ended till drench wif e stinking sweat...
wet n hungry, we went to torn in lene hse..

woah!
fun!
luv tis kind of life! being wid my frens n no 1 esle..
cheese!

wake up wid a headach n body ache but tis didn`t stop mi frm having prata for breakfast!
watched a movie called HOUSE OF E WAX!
though i was sitting alone even when lene n van were ard, i didn`t hav any arms to hold on to...
but tt movie`s simply nice...
i rate it a 3.5 stars instead of 2 stars stated in magz

fever of 37.9...juz hope tml will b a better day for party...:)

FUN,u can onli say it`s fun

2005-05-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

tis 3 days were great!
however fun it was, i regreted nt attending e 2nd day,instead, i went shopping wif van n lene...
i did enjoyed my last day in e workshop n simply GREAT!
made some new frens n to-be-sch mate
icon,naomi,lots n lots of fun pp...
n of coz love e mass dance so much...
gt to noe tis gl, alan!
he`s wonderful wid his small eye n messy hair!
gt a hug as well as a pad frm him....
gt to play game lyk lillop game!
well, gt hit by a flying water bag,right in e forehead!
PAIN!

miss all e shouting n cheering wif neon,thought, we weren`t e winner, neon always shine as bright as winner...:)

i miss everi1 in neon,n simply think tis workshop rox!!
:)

appearance dun suit their behaviour

2005-05-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

suffering frm depression,den worrying abt stuffs here n there...
gt to meet sum sch-mate,fren of my ex-bf

my past was no longer a past,it was brought forward which seem to sound lyk reality
3yr ago story,they wanted it 2 b loud

kind of piss-off,3yr ago,yet they wanted to bring it up
18yr old ,doesn`t seem to b wat they r...
cant they juz let mi off?
bunch of idiots!

i`m juz a brand new me,looking forwards for poly life n new fren n new future..
but r they there to ruin part of it?
no 1 noe

i forgotten my past so 2 b a brand new mi, a better mi to face my future,yet it nv seem possible...

shopping day!

2005-04-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

woah! gt up n made sum fried rice for myself, turned out to b a disappointment to mi.. haiz...
meet up wif van n charlene...
went frm tm to mustafa...gt sum stuffs there..
gt down to queentown as welll...
item bought

2 mascras
a pair of jean
1 roxy top
2 necklace
1 bottle baby oil for mi
a pair of white round earring

well, cost mi 110 buck in total...
well,felt real great after shopping!
van is rather crazy or shld i say she`s hyper ?
gee, gt addicted to e sweet stuff in tt india resturant...
tink i gotta make my way down to hav a feast of tt!
:)
rather tired nw..
gt to turn in soon!

they r nice!

2005-04-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

well, felt real tried after my work,help con to cover his shift coz he gt to fly oversea for impt matter...
gt to work wif razsul again, lyk his smile, his macnoald smile! gt to noe he`s 22yr old tis yr...well,he looked lyk 19/20 to mi!!!

gt to work wif zul as well!
he`s a nice easy-going chap...

actually requested for a room to stay over from aman...
gt a feedback in a poor manner,dun reali lyk e way i gt e ans to my qns...

well, tt nice of zul to go hm wif mi...:)
tonight is quite a quiet night for saltwater,but later lighten up by 2 kid n aman...
aman is kind of nice!
seeing e way he played wif e kids there,feel n think tt he gt a nice childhood...
think he gotta b a great father in e future..:)

when g tto turn in early coz still got to work 8am shift tml...
nite to all my fren...
apologie to fren i neglect due to my work... sorry!

gone

2005-04-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

gt my pay for last week`s work...
going to do some wild shopping after tt...

went to tp to hand in some form...
had a class gathering wif my ex-classmates
tis gathering is kind of nice coz i gt to c my ex classmate whom i hasn`t been seeing for quite some tym...
however nice it is, mmt of sadness do come in...nt for every occassion but onli for tis....
linda is leaving spore e nxt day!
she was e 1 hu i told my things to,i share thing wif,sum1 hu i gt her in my mind....
she will b away for 5/6 yr...
a hug tight will leave us apart...wif tears
will reali miss her
could onli meet her after yrs, when we r both grown-up..
wonder hw is she gonna cope wif her life there.
hope everything go smoothly for her in ta strangers` country..

linda**
 great ger do hav her great days

she gone for e tym being

no no to smile

2005-04-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

kind of tired at tis pt of tym, but juz cant slp...
work was bad juz nw
felt 2pid thing juz nw tt my whole face turn pale lyk hell when i looked into e big mirror...
i was avoiding wc in work,tink he`s rude...
tt`s all...
gt to c aman ger...
they match!!
at least they understand each others` language!gee

didn`t reali smile alot tis night coz too busy,kind of short of man power,asked to do tis n tt at e same pt of tym, suck!
aniway,right nw in e peak of working..
love being single coz simply hav no tym for another partner due to work...

well, having my pay soon, tink shopping day is juz ard e corner!
woah...::)

gt to rest...

2005-04-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

great day tt start wif bad beginning
van was freak up!
she was so wori of her sch stuffs n lene arrival...
well, things end smoothly when we arrived sp..
saw xue hui,well, she `s nw ful of confident...

van saw 1 cute guy in sp, he happen to b pinpin`s fren....wat a small small world
find van funny today coz she is so interested in loking out for cute guys!
van gt herself sum earring as usual
well, i did get sumthing for myself..
1 medium-sized bag as well as 1 handbag frm hula&co...
failed to prey on aniway nice seashell necklace which is quite sad...
but i gt myself sum nice necklace...
failed to get sum tops n jeans in town coz it was quite late already
:)
woah woah wee!

gt to meet stepfi..
well,it` been 3yrs tt we last meet in international camp when i`m still in sec2..
she din reali change much..she looked almost e same..:)

life is always full of tears n laughers, n i simply wish tt mine will b full of tears in laughters...
:)

fren r leaving mi 1 by 1...slowly n quietly, they left no traces for mi to keep...
hurts

tired

2005-04-15T15:49:00.000+08:00

kind of real tiring tis tym round...
took over con`s shift, so started at 7am...
well, crowded!
e cafe was damned crowded till vau had sum guests there having their breakfast..
finally when it`s 3pm, i met up wif abbi for lunch in e nearby hawker centre...
well, it`s disappointing,though tis dish i had was recommended ...
gt a shower tt made mi shivered for long..

when `s dinner tym, at 6pm,
it`s crowded again..
well, it ended early enough for us...
but we were all gt tored out,
i`ve nv work so busy b4.

zack was crazy yst..
i was asked to do tis n tt..

abbi seem to hav nth to do...

gt surprise during work...
gt to c my cousin, n ex-boss n staff.. :)

my legs was so tiring...
hurts!!!!!
worked till 11pm...
but for money sake,fine......

using him to hide

2005-04-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

went out wif theinesh today...
holding on to my hp, wondering if i`ve already let go of him...
he`ll b going to chalet near my hse,kind of rare coz he lives real far frm mi...

aniway,1st tym out wif theinesh was lyk...
he lyk to pinch mi!n poke mi!
making mi ticklish...
went for coffee,mocha frappe was bitter lyk raw coffee...
but halnut crunch taste nt bad...

he msged n asked y i din reply...
i`m hiding away...
away frm u...

i`m kind of lyk using theinesh as a excuse...
sorry

freaking shocked

2005-04-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

was chatting on msn den my fren asked if i mail in my enrolment form
well! i hav nt!
went thr my form n realise tt i still nid my parents` signature...
oh man!
tink i`m nt going into tt course of mine tis yr...
well, gt to noe tt e deadline was yst..
tis is bad, real bad!
called up parents at their workplace n buzz them wif qns...

well, gt to get ready to meet up wif fren..

again, yesh! it happen again

2005-04-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

went into hafiz condo n swim as well as sun tan,
suppose e sun doesn`t lyk mi,
so u can guess tt there wasn`t much sun there 4 mi to tan myself,
i`m kind of discolourise!
:)
eyes seem to b real swollen after last nite crying

gt myself sum lettuce n low fat stuff,hope cooking mak mi feel better,
afterall, i do enjoy cooking...

well, gt into quarrel again
tis tym round wif sis again...
gt insulted frm her,it seem lyk everyday life wun lack of ours quarrelling...

bad bad day

2005-04-09T23:59:00.001+08:00

woke up late, end up being late for e meet-up wif jun wei,
nice lunch in juz noodles, ate tt soft -shell crab
gt to noe y crab gt tt soft shell, kind of cruel,dun tink i wana eat already
jun wei seem to b unhappy wif attacking mi verbally
kind of piss-off.....
well, mayb he`s juz himself...
discover tt he lyk 2 look at ger, well, i enjoy looking at ger wif him!
:)

juz when we were on e way back,i gt real piss-off when him by 3 incident...
lying his hand on my shoulder n hurt it...
DAMNED!
it`s painful
he`s behaving lyk a pervert!!!

nxt, after entering train, he act lyk a child, pointing at my eye level, directing mi when to move in...
HELLO!
tt door is e nxt entrance of e next stop, obstructing e entrance is all u wan izzit?
den i move in e rear....
he pushed mi when i wasn`t holding on to anything...
alomost fall but didn`t..
kind of irritated!!!
it`s not fun neither it interest mi

thank for being rude to mi tis whole trip!

well ,went to tak passsport sized photo n it doesn`t look lyk mi except my mole up there in e pic...
:)

went back to get ready for campfire!
happened to c leon n christospher...
they r going clubbing!
if it wsn`t of e campfire, i`ll sure join them...haiz...
nvm
well, campfire tis tym round was bad, BORING!
zuri,lene n i went ard e new campus...
kind of real dark n gt tt fear in mi..
happen to walk on e path across e fish pond
wow!
saw tis long eel... as long as my hand...!!!!!
big!

well, gt hm n had a quarrel wif sis
bitch is wat came out frm her mouth, no respect frm her, gt scolded by parents bcoz we were too noisey
well, simply becoz she was shouting at mi for all e while, i was juz talking to her lyk norm
she acted pity when both parents came out,
simply hope she will disappear frm my life!
i reali hope tt!
she took everything for granted!!!!!!

well, gt tt idea of moving out in my mind...
i believe tt will happen real soon if nt i think i`ll commit sucide....

i juz wan to b happy... tt`s all,nth much
seem impossible when i hav such i kin!

WAT A DAY!!!

2005-04-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

woke up in e morining,well,ishld say it`s noon time when i woke up.rather tired 4 mi
woke up, called up mum to ask if she sees my CFP return letter,i remembered correctly that i left it on the table. she said she didn`t see tt letter.

i went searching in e rubbin,kind of disgusting.found tt right in e bin.
ASSHOLE!
who threw tis away. got mad coz i could actually find such impt letter in the rubbin?

my mood wasn`t there for 2day
`tt him` got home and shouted at mi for locking e door?
well, if i wana lock,you tink i`ll let u enter into e hse n let u shout at mi for thing i didn`t do?

called up mum again.this time i wasn`t realli in tt kind of awesome mood--------- MAD!

shouted at e fone behind mum couldn`t hear mi.
help her y she locked at door
`that him` shouted at mi once again

well, dun i hav e right to b angry??
i`m human being too

for wat mum had done, he shouted at mi.
for wat mum cant hear clearly,he shouted at mi

DAMNED!
is shouting, all he can do?
wanted mum 2 get mi a new hp wif line?
kind cheaper than prepaid card, and think it`s time 2 put my long-term no. in e poly enlroment form.she said juz put down e hse no.
~HELLO~
you wan mi to put 678...... which is under hp no.?
kind of very big joke
not funny but !!!!

gt really angry wif mum`s ignorance& his stupidity

right nw crying in tears of anger& depression
Pity myself
envy others
everyone at least have someone to concern& understand you
not for mi
`concern` is nt a word for my mum towards mi.
`care` nt a word frm every1 in e family,in a way they treat mi.

i juz wan to leave tis pathenic way.
out of tis awlful truth.
even if e only solution
is for mi to die, well, i dun mind
coz it`s is simply too harsh for my emotions n body.

i hate my life in tis family

my pay day!

2005-04-06T14:27:00.000+08:00

my 1st pay day!
kind of happy, gt abt 140, going to gif mum $40...

mr william smile tis time round, n it`s vibrant!
cool huh?( he nv smile for e 1st 4 day since i start working there)
was called glass queen coz i was in e kitchen wiping e water globen
made a mistake tt i took e bill for another table for e table behind the station.
fool ard wif fren lyk abbi n darius...
drank coffee made by darius,too bad he didn`t noe how to mak mocha!(my fav!)
well, when my fren dun,i do!
made sum mocha out of epresso n chocolate powder...
well, it taste real bad! PUKE PUKE*
released early by william at 10pm instead of 11... kind of happi coz got to do thing slowly b4 we come out for supper in e kitchen
gt sum nice tiny cake hm for my sis n mum

i suffer frm runs,i suppose tt`s e effect of tt PUKing mocha??hHa
well, call up jun wei, n i suppose i sound abit loud...
aniway,i m not angry wif him at all...
juz confused!!!
sumtime irritated by his action...
he do things tt is wonderful, but at e same time, he made mi doubt him...
wana ask him wat` s he trying to do!

** e runs vv hurting my ass!**
hee

nt a bad day

2005-04-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

woke up wif no mood "_
ate nth much for breakfast, ate 5 mini kind of bananas,kind of cute-looking
received a msg frm linda tt dinner meeting is called off...
kind of disappointed coz reali wanted to hang ard ard my frens,had been a long tym i din get to c them :/

called up van for a chat, she asked mi along for dinner in bedok interchange
wif charlene, we ate tis 3 dish,kind of not bad...
went ard looking 4 hp which i gotta buy soon...

after tt,went down to simei for a coffee drink in starbuck...
we had a nice chat wif e presence of ms sakinha sitting 2 tables away frm us...
chat into e history of whole war II
cause of hitlor(wrong spelling)
he`s a interesting figure in history,thank to van, admitted ta her history is indeed worth a distinction! :#

gt back hm at ard 11, well, tried to put in a tag board for my blog, yet,tink i`m rather 2pid n made a mess out of it...

relationship wif my mum is always ON_OFF_ON _OFF...
kind of sad for tt, i juz wana sit down n chat wif laughter together wif her...
tink tt`s kind of impossible...

happy yet my stomach issit

2005-04-04T02:48:00.000+08:00

wow!
real tired cos i onli slept 4hr for e nite b4...
it`s my 1st tym working morning shift!
nice!
coz i gt to c hw bright e morning could b...
breakfast out in e balcony wif greenery in ur sight,tt`s real relazing for mi to spend my morning....
mayb tt `ill happen after i get married?
haha

abbi broke her 1st glass today, n she was reali freaking panic !
poor thing, my ger
gt to meet e head chef today---jason
first sight, i thought he is sum kind of construction working, he looked lyk ah beng
HELLO, juz 30, n he`s e head chef!
no ah beng can do tt, well, i admit he`s kind of handsome other than ryan.. grin!

gt to work wif theinesh today,he lyk to poke my side, kind of nice eyes he had...:)
1st tym working wif darius as well, he`s always looking for thingy to do coz he`s juz too bored

razak gt mi to clean thingy up!well, alrite, i got to observe items n stuffs there... :)
well, helped alex fong n a thank u came upon, he sounded well, kind of cartoon... haha

after work, after meal in subway, met up wif junwei again...
accompanied him to town for library book
tried eclair there, n i rate it 3/10
nt reali nice at all....

my stomach wasn`t in gd condition, not hungry, dun feel lyk eating but i noe i nid to eat...
finally settled down to food, tried e thai mango salad
tink of new taste,bit of funni. i tried to appreciate e taste of it... :)
but sumhow made he angry, i din know wat i did wrong...

in e end, i ended up not wanting to talk ti him,
i was lyk tolerating wif him all e while, he lyk to show him his middle finger!
HELLO!
wat was tt suppose to mean?
act cool or wat? wana shut my mouth out?
halfway in during e meal, he doesn`t want to tok to mi
well, e reason b4 was dumb!
well, i hav no mood to explain wat....

i kept quiet till i reach hm..
quarrelled wif my mum...
tried to explain to her abt e poly check-up, she suppose any clinic provide this service... well!
HELLO!,it`s stated!
pissed off!!!

boring!

2005-04-03T15:29:00.000+08:00

went out wif junwei today
accompanied him to buy parents for his cousin n god-sis...
kind of nice shopping wif him coz he brought mi to millien walk whereby i`ve nv been there b4...
he bought 2 cool cute candles n 1 necklace...
i happened to c tis cart stall wif seashell necklace!
WHATEVER!
i`m suffering frm low cash, so y bother to look at things i cant afford to buy...
kind of sad tt mmt...

gt into cab heading towards changi village hotel... i`m gona b late for work
n wat made ta worse was e taxi...
he went 1 big whole long way to reach tt place...
but, it`s okie coz zachary , e supervior of e day din reali talk to mi abt tt...:)
yea!
gt my name tag today!
kind of reali happy!
staffs there were mocking my name n making fun of it,well, it`s okie anyway

today, i learnt sum new thingy, HOSTING!
well,kind of real nervous when i gt to handle those walk-in-guest...
soon,i noe wat to do n all thank to poh lim n zhiying...
pple there i`ve met r nv mean...
tt`s so great

!!!
it`s kind of real bored being hostress coz u hav no1 to talk to,esp when there isn`t any guest...

well, after work, i still hav to go meet jun wei 1st coz he is in e chalet which is in-front of e hotel...
kind of real smoky n i reali hate tt....
reali to e core... e whole rm was air-conditioned wif smoke in it...

WOW!to my surprised!
jun wei gave mi tt necklace he brought, kind of nice but i took a close look at it n realised it`s easy to break as well....
suppose i`m not going to wear it often

reached hm in smoky-stinked shirt...

it`s sumhow of WOW!

2005-03-30T15:24:00.000+08:00

1st day of work wasn`t as bad as i expected.
nice envirnoment and fun!
it`s so happening despite it`s a hotel...

it was fun, gt to c my ex sch mate- saufiddin..
he have been there for lyk 2mth, wow!
he taught me sum basics, lyk wiping of forks etc..
i was buffet runner of e night
open air bbq in hotel restuarant!
rather cool huh!

gt to noe sum of e part -timers, not when we were working but when they came to dine-in..
they came in 1 bunch of 10, gt to noe sum of them were quite cute...yup

i wasn`t myself when i worked, i accidentally dropped the fork on e table n e sound was lyk ~ARGH~ loud man!
and i spilled sum h20 on e table when i serving the part-timer.. ( tink i c cute guy, i`ll b clumsly??)

well, we gt to dip in at abt 10.45pm whereby buffet closed at 10.30pm..
food there were nice n yummpy.. :)

when i was on my way hm on e bus, all male were on mi!
HELLO!
HAVEN`T U SEEN GER IN UR LIFE!
tt`s so annoying n disgusting..
eyes staring at mi, frm head to toes, up n down..
puking fuking irritated!

realised tt i gt strung by mosquito there in e workplace...
well, nice day, nice pp i meet n horible pp i met as well...
cant wait to go work again
but still got to wait till thursday...

nite to all

i was aloone

2005-03-29T15:44:00.000+08:00

well, gt to watch movie wif my frenz, YEA! rite, grp of fren i should say!
played 2 game of tables ball...

leon
nicholas
vanessa
arnoald
zhiwei
alan
charlene
abbi
tis 9 of us altogether...

kind of hapi to c nicholas!
well, he`s juz my fren,
gt in luv wif his new hairstyle!
so CUTE!
reali nice on him, nw he looked mor lyk a baby monkey!
:)

tt movie `e eye 10` kind of funny n scary
van was there pulling my hand over to her side across arnoald... freaking hell!
van gt to hid ard when it`s scary as well as abbi could do it wif zhi wei
i was sitting in between abbi n arnoald
so they r kind of busy, i could juz shout in myself...
tt`s horrible coz when it`s so scary,there`s no arms to grab, althought i watch in a grp but i awlfully felt i`m juz alone there in e seat....

movie`
5 of them were juz too playful
gt themselves into troubles
one by one, gt into bullshit
n 1 by 1 get to care for each other for more they do

had a full dinner in van`s place...
kind of too full...
hee,guess i`ve eaten too much
:)

gt a drink frm starbuck den made my way to haifz hse..
it`d been such a long tym i din get to c him... kind of miss him...
he failed to attend sch due to his bad health...
well, his room was lyk not bad but kind of messy...
gt to chat wid him abt his n my future n his coping of sch work...
tink sunday i really nid to help him wif his study in e afternoon...
tak care of brother..

well,kind of tired today coz i did sum housechores today, mopping e whole hse after sweeping them clean n pan....

gt to turn in b4 my mama nag.. nite to all

nice day though...

2005-03-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

real cool today!
went off wif my gerfren- siow wen..
cool, went into CK to buy sumthing
BOXER for her dear...
she seem so shy,well, basically i dun mind..though e sale assitants were looking at mi wif kind of funny, i dun really gif a damn..
well, i dun hav a honey or dear to gif boxer to though i wish to!
:)
after purchasing tt, we made our way to marina square..
part of it r under upgrading process,so there is reali limited shops to go into
we ate our lunch in long john silver...
i was using knife n fork to eat my sweet corn! kind of too juicy!
after tt, took a great form of excerise.
went frm shops to shops to look for her sport shoes wif a budget of $80.. b4 tt, i brought myself a halter at 37degree..kind of nice design though it looked lyk ancient under grament
!
after walking for quite a long long, got a rest in delifance in suntec...
got tt coffee elcair n latte...
went over to tm for more choices of sport shoes...
she spotted a nice nike sport shoes,asked e sale assitant,all we noe was tt her size wasn`t available... ask if there is any other branches which hav tt pair wif bigger size... all they siad was NAH NO

we tried our luck in east point outlet
WOW!
WOAH! saw nick yeo.. he looked kind of great in ta uniform?? gee
we got her size in tt outlet!
cheers!
she was so happy ,afterall, she bought all she wanted, boxer for him n shoes for herself...
she`s kind of thoughtful n simple-minded....
felt relaz wif her...
hope she n him will last real long.. all e way GER!

great day wif great big size tummy!

2005-03-27T14:29:00.000+08:00

went to ubin island wif my fellow guides...
cum new faces i saw... friendly they were... felt no barries wif them... kind n cheerful soul were wat i c n companied!
found out new stuffs in tt island...
herbs n plant tt i had nv ever took notice of...:)
kind of fun morning wif them
e jetty was grealy upgraded for e sake of tourim in spore... tt`s clever of tourist board of spore!
after tt,lene,bong n zuri as well as mi including ms sakinha went over to TM`s seoul garden for a buffet treat fm teacher..
great !
well! vv full, bong ate twice of wat i ate, she`s great!
i was puking full!!!!
great tummy!

after tt,met up wif siyuan,HE~S ACCOMPANY TO BUY MY COURT SHOES!
well, he gt a new hair cut! kind of short..

SIYUAN! "ur hair is going to grow okie? dun worry too much! cheer up!"

he`s a great fren! giving opinion when i looked at sumtym tastless...!
we walked abt 3hr in tt small warehouse..
went to buy sumthing frm e supermarket den b4 i leave for hm, gt to spend him hm 1st...
well,gt to slp early coz i`ll meeting up wid siow wen tml!
woah!
great!
it`d been a long tym tt i`ve not seem her...
meeting up at 12noon,cool.. she wana buy sumthiny though i din noe wat thing was tt gonna be...
hope it`ll b a nice day tml!!!
thank alot my fren-siyuan

miss tt out

2005-03-26T15:21:00.000+08:00

miss van n lene out for tt metro sale, nid 2 shop for a court shoes for my job which i will b starting to work on tis coming tues.. i was sleeping then when they called mi
stayed at hm e whole day n slacked ard, eating things tt r within my sight...
wow! my tummy is lyk!!!!
looking for sum1 to go out wif mi to e metro sale... haiz...
hate being alone...
looking lyk a pathenic idiot down e streeet.. nah, tt wun b mi...( i hope so)

much better

2005-03-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

gt up n met abbi,interview for her n orientation for both in VILLAGE..tt`s a four star hotel in changi village

kind of WOW for tt 4 stars hotel... got to noe tt there`s 25% discount for us when we go there for meal...
kind of excited to work them,learn mor thing n chances to stay away hm...
well! i went to sum warehouse sale wif abbi... kind of great!
i spent quite alot!
brought sum lingiers n clothles...
well,felt so great afterall...:)
i juz wan to b mi...tt`s all...

taken for granted...

2005-03-24T15:39:00.000+08:00

gt up at 7 to gif wake up call for fren
went to tp,halfway through we saw van n lene..
appealed for food science n nutrition as well as tourism n hospitality managment....
ate sum stuff in design food canteen.. nice soup..
abbi,bong n mi gt to spilt up wif van n lene coz bong juz wan to go np 1st n e other heading for sp..
i followed bong coz i tink she`ll b alone..
i felt irriated when bong juz wan to go nyp.. i juz wan to wait for ming to come coz i already called him to rush down..
damned!
would a little waiting cause death...
juz went off n apologiesd to ming,i wasn`t in a mood to go nyp,but i`m a word of woman...
frm dover to yo chu kang...
real long.. i wasn`t in a mood to say anithing,juz deep in thought for things...
gt down at yo chu kang station, saw tt bus tt is stated in e jae booklet,so we juz hopped on it...
i said abt e direction board to nyp,which was actuali frm e direction which e bus is going...
she supposed we will reach them...
i kept in silence n waited to c...
i wasn`t reali in gd mood coz wat`s bong doing?
i`m human,nt dog!
not sum1 who mus listen!
i hav my own opinion...
we dropped sumwhere far frm nyp n took bus back 2 e interchange...

managed to reach nyp but 13min late for appeal...
damned!
my bus fare is running down,waste of tym,waste of money,juz to mak myself to feel down or angry or watever shit?

reach hm eventually,gt into quarrel wif mum n sis..
sis juz throw a little trautum when she knew i`m using a wardrode...
mama stood up for her, i wasn`t reali happy of hwo she treated mi
i did all e housechore yet sis din...
wat had she done to contribute even a little to e family?
ma juz reprimanded mi,tt`s all..
i throw a little trautum n gt tt frm her...
I`M A HUMAN! I HAVE FEELING!!!!
i was in tears back in my room...
i HATE tis family...
reali...

no 1 care abt of i feel,when i care so much of their feeling n was hurt by them...
tink tis is reali 2pid of mi...

a damn shit life of mi....

posting day!

2005-03-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

argh!
woke up at 9 am when i slept at 3am ...
6 hr of slp seem reali little for mi to spend e all day...
i din wake up by my own, i was actuali woke up frm e ringing of hp n so on..
it`s so annoying but sumthing is there waiting for mi..
my posting to which poly i wil b spending my 3 yrs there

i`m reali sad, disappointed... no1 could understand how much i felt coz i hid them well...
having to know abt my posting,tt wasn`t e worst...
e saddes thing was vanessa shouted at me...once again...

planned to mak our way down to sp wif vanessa n charlene as well as bong..
but vanessa n lene went without mi n bong...
wanted van n bong to meet up coz bong said she missed van,which included it had been much a long tym tt they din get to c each other..
i`m down

well,so i spent my day wif bong ,going sp followed by ngee ann poly...
took e wrong bus n had to delay my meeting wif darius
supposingly,all 3 of us,vanessa n lene were supposed to come along,but they said they weren`t in a mood to go...
so wat`s e promise of going them made by vanessa...
darius is kind of gentleman... more of vv gentleman among all my male fren.. he`s a gd fren to-be...

after sum shopping to cheer mi up, met up wif vanessa to hav sum drink down in starbuck...
though,it seem okie,deep down my sorrow hart,i felt lyk crying out loud!

she had left for good

2005-03-22T02:40:00.000+08:00

juz got up frm bed , wash up n got into my friendster acct...
under bulletin board,i saw hester posted up there, i clicked to view
i was too down when i viewed tt...

e saddest part was e memories tt we had together, cracking jokes early in e morning,shopping for groceries in e nearby supermarket,n planning of how to cook e food in e best way...she is sum1 hu enjoy food wif mi, e taste n appeal tt we talked...sumthing which wouldn`t happen anymor...
she is always a sunshine for mi,seeing her was as great as getting present.. nw, she left for malaysia for good,afterall, spore is not where she come frm, going there for studies seem better..
being a independent ger, i`ve gt no worry for her,she would b able to cope thing well as much i wish she could b able...

i miss her so much yet i could onli feel her presence when both of us r online up in msn...
pathenic... yup,there`s no doubt abt tt...

18 march wif them= awesome! muack

2005-03-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

it seem a fine day for mi today!
got out wif steven for a movie IN GOOD COMPANY...
quite a show but too slow moving...bit of bored but it had a storyline :)
den frm lido, i went to plaze sing...tt was far coz i walked all e way to get there...
i was excited to c daryl! so excited coz it had been such a long tym tt we meet...
well, or shld i say tis is our very 1st SINGLE date... ( we r juz gd fren )
i could still remb hw i got my very 1st valentine day present when i was juz sec1.. frm daryl!
he gave mi tis cute keychain but i returned to him!
i rejected him....
after then,he got arrange to sit behind mi in class... tt was horrbile, he was spourting all disgusting thing, tis set a impression in mi... nt bad but a awlful 1....
anyway ,b4 we watch SON OF THE MASK at 7... got our dinner in marchive... a great 1
*pizza
*mixed berries waffle wif choco
*hot chocolate
*tsiramisu
*ice coffee

tt was filling!
he got himself a wallet as well as a bag..
walking past Paragon wasn`t great coz tt awesome scent was in e air yet, onli at tt mmt of tym, i could smell tt...
bacisally, raphl cool was going their advestisment down in town, right outside Paragon...
I WANT TT,yet i`m unable too... sad huh?
nvm, well i earn, i`ll get tt... but i juz wan tt badly...
everything was in a rush coz i tink we ate too long... :)
gee...
SON OF THE MASK!
tt was a nice 1....really incrediblely
THE MASK was my favourite during my childhood time....
hope i will get to watch more MASk stuff...:)

got hm by train,met tis cute guy...simply cute....

gt hm wif a great mood, found sumthingy new in my room!
COOL!
tt thing is right nw in my rm??
cant believe wif my eyes...
wardrode!!
my own...
but tt`s a small 1... nvm, i how to mak full use of it...
LUV U DAD!

near ti midnight,when i was abt to end tis blog, brother came hm, tt NS GUY... he look better wif tt clean little round head!
gee

+++u r onli sum1 lyk a normal fren to mi ever since then, u hurt mi without noticing my existence +++

i wasn`t in love coz i c no hope, single was wat i want, sumthing tt wun harm n i could stay alive....

all kind= sux, damn,cool

2005-03-16T04:47:00.000+08:00

had been hanging out in town recently, bit of tried of tt, but 1 place is nv bored... mc cafe!!!
today`s abt serious stuff ta sux!went down to town for interview, DFS is where we head for... but,it seem tt it`s hopeless for us....but still gratful towards cathy for introducing tis to us...
got to go back hm juz lyk tis?
nah!
we do noe how to enjoy, got a tasteless passion fruit tea frm mac cafe...
went for shopping at far east...
hope to c my ex sch fren- amanda, it`d been such a long tym tt we hav lost contact.

felt tt van behave differently in front of 2 different genders..is tt her?
after far east,den we ran into our fren wif 2 other gers,cool, he din change at all
den to hereen for marchive... each spent abt 5$
got 2 scoops of ice cream of tt banana wraffle.. :)
tt`s shoik (althought bit of too sweet)
went hm after tt coz vanessa hav her own plan at 8

got leon to job wif mi...
for abt 2 hrs, my ankles hurt!
i suppose tt`s due to insuffient warm ups...
well, felt real good after tt 2hr run... tt`s so refreshing! it`d been such a long long tym tt i done tt... hope i`ll b able to jog which include my ankles r fine...

brother juz went in tis morning, tt`s bad...
mum wroke mi up at 9am, i onli had 6 poor hrs of sleep.. she wan mi to open up her hp, well, i did tt as wat she wan...
found out tt she wan mi to SWITCH on...
tt`s so 2pid of mi...
anyway, it`ll b 2 weeks time tt i dun get to b my brother... by then, he will b bald.. :) cant wait to c tt...:)
tak care ...

with them

2005-03-15T04:52:00.000+08:00

got up at ard 11, wana go back to slp but hav to meet my fren later on for town...
wore a black top wif a skirt so as to brighten n lively my day...
he was late,making us to wait for him, vanessa was bit of fed-up but she gt tt cheer-ups frm mi... vanessa n i met 1 of our fren in e station while we were waiting... he look better or shld i say he was able to bring out good real stuff out frm him compared to last tym..
yup..
met up wid NIC!!!! went for a late lunch wif him despite hw hungry he was...reason behind was tt leon was late.... gt to noe a nw fren, cathy.. nice ger, she followed along wif us for lunch..a 19yrs old who dun hav tt 19yr old face, she look real young lyk 16 or even 15...:)
nic extended his break by himself,frm 1hr to 2hr... went for a game of pool in k pool...damn it! i was wearing a skirt by then, cant reali stretch,so i anyhow play... happen to c my bro n fren hu came to my hse eariler on...
MIND!
my brother is going in for NS tml.. tis is his late enjoyment,afterall , all tough training await for him...
gt a eyebrow pencil frm sasa together wif VAN
felt left out all e while when i was out wif those 2...
felt so bad, loney,depress...
but wat for?
it`ill b okie..
letting them noe abt my feeling, tt will surely affect e shopping mood of their...i`m not any attention, all i wan was fun.. tt`s all...
too bad...
got cathy no.
gt a few lobangs(jobs)
gt afew doubts,so pple lyk van,nic, cathy n leon were on confer...
got to noe hw to go, all tis n tt, felt left out again...

**** damn it, if u wan all e attention! u can have it, well, it include tt u r happy... i`m not any attention seeker but i`m happy... unlike u, sum1 hu dun spare thought for frens... ****

tt`s a horrible remark for my day...")

last day

2005-03-14T04:52:00.000+08:00

today seem to b my last day at downtown f&b banquet...
today ocassion is a weeding dinner... small dinner wif 35 table... but e bride is pretty..:) let alone e bride groom... :)
fancy their frens came out wif e idea of havin rose petals(white,pink and red) on e dinner table was decoration..
cool!
got mistaken tt i`m attached again... i`m not... :)
gt jun wei no. n gave my no.
felt loney n sad... kind of feeling when i left time newslink... tt`s sad...
but i handle them well..
reach hm n logged onto my msn...
finally got to c my fren online.. he wasn`t answering my call lately...
oh!
wat surprise mi was apology frm derrick... well, for e past was e past, sorry wasn`r wat it tak... so it`s okie brother!
felt tt cant a single ger b single?
pples` questions like " r u attached" " u muz b attached!" or how`s r u wif ur guy?"
i simply hav no idea n no strenght to ans tis kind of qns...
god knows...
:)
drank a glass of20% of camus xo... quite tipsy
called ming...
felt better afterall...
it fades...
ZZzZzzZZzzzZzZZzZZZZzZzZZZZZ

i admit i`m a bad drinker...

things ta i wan, i wish 4...

2005-03-13T16:20:00.000+08:00

wan tis few...

new hp
wardrode
8 tops
4 jeans
2 bags
1 formal slipper
1 short heel
wan sum $ to highlight my hair
paint to paint my room
raphl cool kiwi perfume

well,tink tt will cost alot... scary... got to work real hard to buy them...
sure mum is not gona gif mi any $ to buy them....
it`s jux her....

today! bad day

2005-03-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

was sitting in simei station at ard 3pm, ah bong as late... made my way down to border in orchard... freaking hot but idiotic mi was wearing black jacket n my only n fav track short...think tt`s a 2pid 2 wear ta black jacket coz its such a hot weather. i was sweating so hard, wif my bra bit of uncomfortable... today`s sumhow of windy, not sunny at all,where had e sun gone? grey day!

= rite nw looking for a job
-well-paid
-long term
-nice environment (high expectation i hav? )

went for a jog ard neighbour... happen to meet my ex- staff...cool! miss her alot...
bad thing happen when i reach hm...
quarrel wif mama which concern alot of things... i dun wan 2 a mummy`s ger! comtrolling mi, my life... suffocating!!!
idiotic!!!
really wan to leave tis hm... haiz...

2005-03-10T12:40:00.000+08:00

tt`s e big chihuahua! cool huh? gee

out wif tT badies babe!

2005-03-08T15:59:00.000+08:00

woah, felt so tired!!! but tis morning n ta day is gona b a great super 1...
starting baking cookies!!!trying out new recipe, kind of risky coz i nv wan my cookies to b puking bad...
*+*+*+*+**+* it went smoothly n nice! cool... well, tink tt new recipes book is kind of can-use...
got myself prepared to meet up vanessa n charlene...
well, they simply look great,felt so inferior when i stood or even walked besides them.. i`m juz too simple for them..
they started quarreling, a unfriendly kind... i stood them stunned,shocked, dumbfolded...
however scary r they, they r still ger,got to noe wat made charlene smile in between the quarrel... a cute guy standing inside a lingiers shop in e basement of far east plaze...
den e 2 gers started it again, tis tym was a pathenic 1...
" he was looking at mi"
" no! he was staring,den i shifted my focus away! den he look at u, i suppose..."

tis 2 ger r juz so cute...
eventually, got to settle down for moderate dinner followed by a movie in lido...
HITCH was e show, tt made all e 3 of us laughing lyk no one business...cute!
suddenly felt i want to b attached...i`m lyk a child lost in damn crowed street, tt kind of lost feeling,sacred kind...
well, nvm... my life still hav 2 go on...
i wun let myself down, i`m born to b cheerful....not frownful...
:)

slow!!! gotta extend ok!

2005-03-03T09:36:00.000+08:00

well, jae thingy is simply too jam! so slow... they really got to extended,idiots lyk mi hav not register for my course... went in to login den failed to, tried a dozens tym but till e same...
damn!!!
got hard tym deciding choice after choice...tt`s bad...
well,choose biomedical,accountancy,banking n fincianl services ect...
hope i can register asap b4 4 of march...
felt so helpless nw, sitting in front of ta monitor lyk a idiot...

pic taken by my sis in my dad`s workplace

2005-03-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

m i pretty? come on! say tt...

moment of sadness den silent...

2005-03-01T15:57:00.000+08:00

i wasn`t as excited or worry lyk e rest, i found there was nth to worry abt, e result is out, e outcome of 4 yr education in sch.
lyk as usual, i gathered wif my ex-class... they r oso so on!
:)
we got sum pizza treat in see yang hse...wow! i miss tt scene whereby all these pp i noe for at least 2 yr come together n chat and enjoy,well, there is oso sum1 to misbehave or entertain in different ways...loud laughters wif slow moving atmosphere filled e big living room.how i wish tis mmt of tym can stop forever, wif us smilng n laughing lyk nobody business....
but nxt mmt was tears..no mor laughters....
1st person in my class cry upon reeiving her result... she failed her eng, but the rest were lyk 2,3,1...felt sad for her, but it almost alert mi,coz i`m those who barely pass eng..
den i saw my best fren, ah bong... she stood in slient,ignoring mi,any1... no1 noe wat`s tinking, it hurt... not because of being ignoring but the silent she stood in... tt fear mi most...
i rushed back the chair n sit in front of my teachers, e 2 hu spend theri 2 yr teaching mi..den i peeped at the slip... YEA!!!!!!! my eng ... i failed to fail... :)
my Os result were much better compared to prelim... all 3 subject frm f9 to c5...
i`m glad for ta improvement but kind of regret for focusing too much of my tym in relationship in the past...

anyway, there is alway plan after everything... i went to cafe cartel n made a fool of myself... well, tt place dun sell prata but i was lyk all e way pronouning prata as pasta... all my fren was lyk mocking at him... nvm, at least they could laugh whereas sum dun even hav e reason to...

den we moved down to east point starbuck for cup of coffee.... well, i was lyk asking them if they wan any dessert after the full dinner in cafe cartel..
we were still worrying of which course to go to so we were lyk flipping thr the jae booklet...pp thought we were looking thr the menu frm starbuck.. :) hahaa

we chatted till late at night till starbuck closed...still wondering hw ah bong feels... tak care ger, there is always path if 1 path is closed for u.... cheer up...

dad or mama,none of them praise mi , no comment , they dun seem to b interested in tt...
damned! sis got A1 for chinese, compared to mi elder sis of hers,even when i retake, i still got b3... damned!!!!!!

nvm... wat is done is done... :_

2005-02-28T12:30:00.000+08:00

cool doggy hor??? gee

BBbbbbbq wif THem

2005-02-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

well, i juz got back frm my fren bbq at east coast,called lot os my fren to join in e fun,yet felt disappointed in ta end...i was cooking n bbq those food, lots of food! fish, prawns,hot dogs, chicky wing, beefs,fried noodles,crab stick and mor... ta make my belly popped out for e whole night... :)
we went to sakihna hse to pick out e food and stuffs in christinee car... den reached at 1pm... EARLY!!!
snapped pic,chase crows, walking to mc cafe and shopped for bikini.... sakihna was so excited over my pink bikini when i return to e pit wif lisa... all the 4 er including of me were looking ard,not onli at boys but at guys as well as cute littly dogs... i was wondering y r those pet owners torturing their dogs by having their pet in clothing despite they looked so CUTE!!! hot or cold day? definitly it was a hot day coz i got sun burn at my back... snapped few pic of the coconuts trees, find them beautiful wehn they danced in the wind, nice!so great...if onli i`m lyk them, so careless n free in the air swing wif the direction of the sea breeze...
for 5hr, there were still the same 5 of us in the pit...none of them is coming to join us... so sad!
well,we juz start the fire, we got lots of fun despite there were onli 5 of us... however long we waited for pple, finally there were pple joining in e fun... sakihna`s family followed by her ah bang`s family.. :)
all malay yet a very fun grp of beings...
cooking for non-stops,i still enjoyed so much...
finally, i went off wif my fren, anson

i was leading the way hm despite i wasn`t tt sure of the route back...
using my instinct, we finally reach the bus stop nxt 2 mobile in kallang, he was cursing mi of wasting his tym, so sad!
anyway,gt to reali apologies for my inaccurate instinct at times....
so sorry...
he changed alot ,mor of not talking back for no gd reason...tt`s gd of him...
anyway,so excited over the receiving of result... woah!
whether bad or moderate, wat`s done is done, juz let it b n b sure i wun run the wrong path again...
ZZZzzzzzzZZZzzzz

cool fun day!

2005-02-20T15:58:00.000+08:00

damn! rite nw suffering frm sun burn! so ugly! omg! wif ta damn red cheek den turn to black dark cheek! tink it`d been rather a long tym tt i had not being tanning myself, tt`s y i kana tt...
well, suffered tt frm the morning sun when i played bball wif my brothers.....
tis morning, i aw sum1 tt i saw b4, i din noe his name but i recognised him despite his new hair cut, he`s e brother of huimin, a bball frm tpss during my time... tink he juz gt into NS, gt tt frm his new hair cut, almost bald but not reali... felt kind of special feeling when i saw him... i`ve no idea y i felt tt way. wow! he and his grp of fren reali play bball well, when playing wif them wif my brothers, they seem to b lyk doing their warm-up... fast n swift! tt`s all i can describle abt their movement... he`s kind of cute althought pp tink tt ns are mor manly, but not for mi..
wish to c him again... hope i`m dreaming... but reali hoping....

after ta, went to meet up wif my 2 brothers again 4 ta open house in tp... wow! so crowd, all kind of pple, it reali scare mi... omg! i`l b so shy to mak fren if i reali study in poly...
so hungry after ta, so 3 of us went to tampine mall for our late lunch... pasta mania! i chose to sit outside! the sun and ta sun! i was brushing hot n red! arnoald told mi ta... i was so shocked when ray actualli add lot lot of cheese over his spagetti, wow! wll, arnoald din lose to him, he added lot of of chilli spices n chesse to his last piece of pizza... wow! all siao !

after ta gd lunch, we went for majong in alan hse , lost 11.5 in the end... bad day!!!!!
too bad, no luck in day...
juz call sum1, he wasn`t free... look lyk i`m disturbing him... sori leon! so sory, u gt to tak care of urself b4 u fall sick badly...

nite to all.... muacks<-------ta`s a good nite kiss.....

valentine! a smiling day for me!!!

2005-02-15T15:58:00.000+08:00

wow! hello!
juz a few minutes to receive another new day,which mean valentine day is gotta be over!
well, a day for one to confess by saying I LOVE YOU this few passion words to another?
! i agree, but too quite a certain extent, it`s also a day for us, those singles to enjoy and apprecite our friends!

that night i was hoping to receive a msg when someone to date me out when i woke up............ but..............too bad!!!

i struggled to wake up, because i knew someone is there waiting for me, well ,they are my great brothers, agustin and mor! i was nine plus when i managed to wake up. damnit! i `m late! i told them i am meeting them at 8.30am at the basketball court!
when i rushed down, it was going to be 11am, two poor guys, under the scorching sun, waiting for me this stupid late girl!
GUYS! i`m so sorry! gee

den i even went up to my friend house to delieve my SHORTBREAD!
gee, i was told that it was not bad! cool, but i expect to hear a BEST OF THE BEST! haha, fat hope!!!!
i was rather sad when i withness my school girls being defeated in their 1st bball match. but i`m proud of them as their fighting spirit were still as strong as ever even till the last seconds!
after 4 quarter of match, 22-22 was the match! it`s a draw! my girls were fighting in pain( the opponents were so FIERCE!) they beared it all , but GOD is never fair, they lose by 1 pathetic mark. the free throw scored by one of the opponent save them frm losing. all i knew was their coach is so EXCITED! He was there scolding all vulgur languages and he really looked like cursing his girls.b4 i went for a match, i saw des (finally), he looked so funny with his little hair ard his mouth, he looked older, but he`s still as pretty as b4, mayb i shld say he`s mor MAN??? mayb!

luckily i went to watch that match, well, i got to see my previous coach! mr wong! he`s getting more PRETTY! yup,that i`m very sure of. there came mr lye and mr teo to watch the match. i was told by michelle that it`s better not to watch their match because it onli add on the pressure in the girls, which i think it`s rather incorrect! our moral support do help! mean we are uselful!
after the match, my girls seem so down, i did nothing to cheer them up because i think they can do better!
girls! prove urself n the others wrong! for their judgement n opinion on u! because u r wat u r!!!

storm was over n there came the sun shinning BRIGHT!
we went to one of e ger hse!
bai nian!
gt an an bao frm her mum , n we helped ourselves to those tibits and food as well as drinks. soon, we started playing MAJONG! and 21 all kind of games. meanwhile,some went to the pool and play their hart out! i felt their laughter were so true, so navie, even thought i had not seen there since last yr june...
i was supoose to pass my present to ming, but he couldn`t make it, i didn`t know ways n idea to cheer him out, hope he`s alrite by now...
ming! the sun is always in u! i felt it so bright in u yet u let the storm to roam u... it`s u to decide, u can choose... smile always, coz think u are born to smile... stay cheerful!
think he is thinking if his past, well, time to get over althought it`s hard! you are storng right ming?
:)
after my dinner in her house, the rest went off and set off for home, but not for me, THE NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG!!!
gee, well, i went to meet up with see yang and gave him his present, i receive mine! i reali love tt! a brown belt from 77th street, U`R greatly appreciated!he grew taller, felt so tiny when i walked besides him, i walked him home b4 i meet up with ah bong. receiving her present in hand, blissful was all i felt! knew what was inside, she was my longest fren! 4 yr fren! till now we are still contacting, often we communicate, we knew how are each other doing in our lives. THANZ!

thanz you every who brought me laughter on this special which are onli meant for loving couples! u all made mi feel i`m not alone, not loved, not nelgected.... singles doesn`t mean loney n sad on the loving day... muacks to all...

valentine day eve

2005-02-14T15:33:00.000+08:00

juz gt back frm a movie,
constantine!!!!
watch it wif 1 of my buddy... we both wore jacket today, he wore a green , n a black 1 for mi.... it`s e 2nd time i watch movie wif him... rather fun, coz i gt to bully... gee
b4 ta, bake sum some shortbread 4 my fren, ah bong, vanessa, all my gd brothers n ming<- ta`s my new fren...

hmm, tinking of going where tml! well, no date no plan no mood no smile...
tinking of hw to delieve those tiny little cookies to my frenssSs.... well, gt to crack my brain for ta... gee...
thought of last yr, made mi felt so down.... try so hard, yet it`s getting harder to forget...
juz last yr, exactly on ta valentine day, i gt him back frm another ger`s hand... well, he 2 timed mi... ta very 1st tym...
i chose to forgif him for wat he is, wat i much i luv him... yet,he nv noe how much he hurt mi,e pain was there, right there to stop mi frm smiling....nw,here i m, still single... yet, he`s out there... njoying himself...
if 1 day, i see him, i`ll will love to tell him,` u r e 1st 1 hu taught mi hw to luv, yet oso e 1st 1 hu taught mi how to hate..........`
i knew my tears willl nv shed for him, for him a worthless in my eye... however, all those sweet memories r kept tight in my hart to gif mi reason to smile over relationship...

right nw, waiting for a guy who

love mi whole-heartedly
treat mi heavenly
tell mi truthfully
steal my hart charmingly
speak to mi softly
touch mi gently
kisses mi passtionately
hug mi tightly
teaches mi patiently
stays with me happily
trust mi ultimately
and with a broken smile

well,i`ll wait till ta day .... coz i got nth else to do den....
wishing a better day for tml.... muack to all my fren.. wishing them a great great valentine day!!!

preparing wif her

2005-02-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

wow! went to ikea wif my best fren, ah bong! happened to see my big cousin there with cousin-in-law.. tis couple onli remind mi ta i`m an auntie nw! hello! i`m onli 17yr old! aunte? nono, juz call mi sister will do... :)
went ard ard, n we ended up eatiing n drinking in ikea, after ta, we went to bas bras...
art fren! tis shop is damn cool... all stuff there r so WOW!
gt to go there often! i bought 15 red paper bags for my cookies for tml n ah bong bought name blocks etc... den i saw tis damn beach boy, kind of boy i onli can get in my DREAM! haha, cool looking n he gt his style... gee, but nah! fat hope la...
well, we went to parco bugis shortly n ah bong get herself a few happy house card...
juz as we made our way hm, i saw tis stall selling bunches of chocolates as flower petal! SEE YANG! he`s e vv 1st hu gave mi valentine day present! cool huh! gee... vv sweet! i luv chocolate as well as flower, n tt`s wat i got frm him... tt`s one of e sweetest memories kept close to my hart... it had been a long long time i had nt seen him, time to mit up soon!

yawn! gt to turn in... to all my loves 1, pls dun forget hu i am , n wat i m...

new new NEW!

2005-02-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

wee! gt to c my handsome fren today, NICHOLAS!!!!
he getting prettier! wee, went for a sun tan wif him by e pool n talk out heart out.. well,he`s still single,lyk wat i m...he`s juz my cool fren!

wow! jus gt my hair rebonded! i lyk exactly lyk my dad`s wet toy poddle! well, gt to sit for 6hr in ta salon! n ah bong was juz sitting there waiting for mi... my dear good fren... she`s damn patience... i actually expect her to gif up n go home, she seem so weary , she dosed off halfway.. cutteee! gee....

new yr new hair!!!

SICK

2005-01-27T04:32:00.000+08:00

gt a big headach when i woke up late in ta morning... felt bit of feverish !feeling my whole body hot, gt a heavy head... gotta to b sick!tink gota to stay at home e whole day so to recover faster coz, omg, tml still gt to work...right nw driinking juice!! fruit juice!!! hope it help mi to recover fast n well... coz 2 fruit in 1... apple-cum-orange! lame??? haha, juz gt tt urge to make ta coz gt too much fruit in e frigde n no1 else is going to touch them...juz gt into my friendster account n modify my profile coz tink it`s abit of sianz to hav e same thing up there.. :) new yr new profile???
juz happen to c vanessa acct...miss her so badly.. had been a long long tym ta i did get to c her...if onli i went out for ta countdown wif her but too bad... it`s okay..i`ll still get to c her on 31th of jan..woah, waiting 4 ta day... miss ya vanessa...

home sweet home

2005-01-26T10:12:00.000+08:00

juz gt hm frm home, so weary.. gt into my friendster acct n got a msg frm christ. making new fren again... woah, one day one new fren, i luv ta man... gt lunch together wif my superviser... went to t1 in airport for mr bean! woah,gt myself blueberry n choco pancake n a drink frm her---- payaya-cum-soya bean ice blend frm her... taste funny,jux felt ta taste of payaya n soya bean dun match! but overall enjoy my lunch wif her by chatting away... felt tt we`r juz lyk fren.. :)
tinking of having hoilday wif miki n suzanna to bangko for shopping in march...tink it`s gotta 2 real fun wif tis 2 adults----they behave lyk kids,worse than mi! haha... went to shop for baking needs b4 i gt home... hmm.m.m.m.... wat to bake tis tym round... yawn... gt to slp,hope when i wake up i got ta ans... :)... ZzzZZZZZz

wake up!

2005-01-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

wake up at 5am when fren r all sleeping deep in thier dream but onli mi, wake up at tis time.. yawn! got to wake up... :)
time to work ger!!!!!

scolding??? na...

2005-01-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

gt a meeting wif ta operation manager.... felt ta everything she said mak good sense... thought she`s going to reprimand mi for ta numerous grave mistake but nah, she said i gt those nagging n scolding n she felt tt t`s enuff 4 mi.... felt so gulity when i knew tt miki was scolded by her superiors for my mistake instead of mi myself... felt real bad... i was almost expel by them but they knew it`s my 1st job... they let mi off tis time... early in the morning,enuice my cousin whu intro mi into ta shop scold mi for my carelessness.. felt so shameful...haiz... a bad day for mi.... but onli noe tt om hav lifted my ban on return.. i`m able to do return frm now onwards n i gotta prove to those hu hav mocked at mi...i`m not any weak dry twigs but a strong metal rod... !!!!!
today seem to b a bad day for jon coz he was reprimanded by siva for his mistake... siva seem to b so harsh wif him.. .but,onli when he knew ta jon was out of his norn after he gt broke up wif his ger. he wont b s o rough wif him...
ps jon++ jon! time to awake,e world isnt going to stop for u when she wasnt there 4 u... it`s alrite.... start ur world moving now n find true colour frm it...

not a happi birthday but a sad 1

2005-01-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

it`s my birthday!!!! but it`s not a happy 1... quite a dispointed 1 coz i expect all my besties to remb abt tis day... vanessa! she still seem unhappy abt ta matter of not going for ta countdown wif her... is ta so impt?? but anyway,got one of my close fren to go SHOPSHOP wif mi, siow wen! :)
we went for shopping in town, looking for her pair of canvas shoes for jc... she`s so amazing! she took up rock climbing for her cca! cool huh! hha,,,mayb tis will help her to b mor sporty n tan looking coz she `s always looking fair...
gt down to takashimaya to wait for linda but she juz didnt turn up.playing us up! haha... it`s alrite... birthday isn`t a time to b angry! :)
after hrs of strolling in ta, went to meet my fren in parkway parade... gt a treat for swedsen! woah! ice-cream.. my FAV.. b4 ta treat,i bought myself a jacket,a black 1.. seem to lyk it...but if onli it`s white... after ta ice-cream,gt a drink in mari parade cc starbuck.. quite a nice cafe to sit down n relaz... we was chatting abt thingy abt past n got to bring up my past, 1 yr back, at ta same night,i was celebrating wif him...tt sinful him.. but nw, it`s okie.. my wish was to spent my birthday wif sum1 hu luv mi deeply.. but,it nv come true,not true,not fulfil...
fren spent mi up ta bus n out of sudden,felt tt i was so loney,no fren! no care frm family n so on n fore.. juz as i gt hm, no 1 wish mi, not a single 1.. vv sad...
okie,gotta go to slp... it`s ok if no 1 forget abt mi tis birthday ger,but i`m remb,it`s my day, onli smile n joy,no tears ok??
but i slept in tear, in sorrow or joy? i myself didnt get an answer for ta....

new yr!!! gota a new freN!!

2005-01-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

oh yea, today`s e very 1st day of e yr!!!! but, i gota work in airport... frm 10.30 - 7.30... i was almost late for work but took a cab down there... forgotten to get ta brownies for jennifer... haha... so went back to get it den pass to her b4 i met siyuan up... BUT!!!! b4 tt, i went to buy myself a pair of earring... it`s a starfish!!! woah... felt so happy over tt... gee... actually it`s juz a simple earring but hmmm, i`m juz happy!!! hee...

meet siyuan fot coffee after leaving e airport... i was late for tt appointment...haha... vv sori wo... hmmm... felt so funny when i met him... gee... bit of shy... vv shy... well, pass him ta box of brownies... he look rather shock... haa..onli hope u lyk ta... yupyup.. ta marine parade cc`s starbuck was closed so we went to the parkway parade there... but b4 we sat down for coffee,we went walking ard ard e mall... i came up wif ta lamest idea... go ard n guess how many shop haven took down their christmas decoration.. haha... well, ta goes without saying!!! i won!!! haha... den he ate his dinner in e food court... he so #@#$$ ,nv tell mi he haven gt his dinner b4 hand... haha... den we went to talking place... chat n chat abt my stories.... yupyup... he mak e a good fren... not definately, i wun fall for him... no idea.. coz ... i hav no idea... single rule!~!

new yr eve!!! wOoah!!!!

2005-01-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

oh, ti`s new yr eve... tym passes so fast, leaving no awareness of pp in e past but sad traces left by them....
nvm... new yr new time... n new happiness!!! woah!!!!
early morning meet up wif desmond... my gd gd budddy, ihe shopped wif mi for grocery!!! he`s so sweet... tink he kinda changed better... mor attractive??? haha... tink so... gee... he made a good guy n fren!!!! muack!!! luv u( as a fren la okie???)haha
den his mama drove mi home.... 1st time met his mama... she`s a cool mama... cool...
well, i bake some brownies for myself n fren... gave it to jennifer n si yuan... reason behind was i lyk jennifer... i do reali lyk her... she`s so humble n cute in a funny-cum bit of silly way... but, i juz her... den a new fren gift for siyuan bahz....
actually suppose to meet vanessa for new yr countdown in downtown... but..cant contact her... den i was quite fed up... so i change my plan...i had prepare dinner n invisted siew feng to cum over to hav a taste of my culinary skill!!! ohoh... she said tt e chicky stew e soup nice but e chicky lyk tasteless... haha.... nvm... it`s my 1st time!!!! geee
den after dinner, we went to tm for tt pernili silver earring... but too bad, when we reach there, tt shop was shop... we went ard n round e shopping mall... went to swedsen for ice cream treat instead of starbuck... ( coz vv crowded la)
it`s quite fun actually coz i was all e way entertaining myself n feng... gee... 2pid bong!!! anyhow snap my pic den kana my chest!!! haha... pai seh man... 1st tym man...
BONG KIA!!! u took away my 2 kind of 1st time le wo.... gee...
happy new yr to all!!!! woah...

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guess..

eve

cant it juz b better for mi

cSA

woah! it`s her day

monday,1st day of e week

horrible day...

my babes,van,lene n 6230

damn!!!!

another life in e world

new life

simply summer relaz

wat a nag in e family

shopping wif e loverable!

food+ babes

nice dinner

hm,e whole day

1st day of semster test

study day 2

study day 1

nice n sad??? impossible but possible

down on my luck..

training? a late 1

sori ger

SQUEEZE!!

back to training

shopping again? yesh...

gosh! bday celebration!

baking in process....

tennis

hurt,,

hurt,,

nice day which ended badly

shopping again? yesh...

shop shop

moiivvveee.....

almost drown

SWIM SWIM!

shopping mates~they r great 1

awlful!

cv

wishing for e day to come n...

my new fren...

gosh! fast!

1st day, new life

new! but na nah

tt bday boy!

woah! argh!

FUN,u can onli say it`s fun

appearance dun suit their behaviour

shopping day!

they r nice!

gone

no no to smile

tired

using him to hide

freaking shocked

again, yesh! it happen again

bad bad day

WAT A DAY!!!

my pay day!

nt a bad day

happy yet my stomach issit

boring!

it`s sumhow of WOW!

i was aloone

nice day though...

great day wif great big size tummy!

miss tt out

much better

taken for granted...

posting day!

she had left for good

18 march wif them= awesome! muack

all kind= sux, damn,cool

with them

last day

things ta i wan, i wish 4...

today! bad day

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