11:27 PM
alone* in the rain;
well, felt real tried after my work,help con to cover his shift coz he gt to fly oversea for impt matter...
gt to work wif razsul again, lyk his smile, his macnoald smile! gt to noe he`s 22yr old tis yr...well,he looked lyk 19/20 to mi!!!
gt to work wif zul as well!
he`s a nice easy-going chap...
actually requested for a room to stay over from aman...
gt a feedback in a poor manner,dun reali lyk e way i gt e ans to my qns...
well, tt nice of zul to go hm wif mi...:)
tonight is quite a quiet night for saltwater,but later lighten up by 2 kid n aman...
aman is kind of nice!
seeing e way he played wif e kids there,feel n think tt he gt a nice childhood...
think he gotta b a great father in e future..:)
when g tto turn in early coz still got to work 8am shift tml...
nite to all my fren...
apologie to fren i neglect due to my work... sorry!
11:01 PM
alone* in the rain;
going to do some wild shopping after tt...
went to tp to hand in some form...
had a class gathering wif my ex-classmates
tis gathering is kind of nice coz i gt to c my ex classmate whom i hasn`t been seeing for quite some tym...
however nice it is, mmt of sadness do come in...nt for every occassion but onli for tis....
linda is leaving spore e nxt day!
she was e 1 hu i told my things to,i share thing wif,sum1 hu i gt her in my mind....
she will b away for 5/6 yr...
a hug tight will leave us apart...wif tears
will reali miss her
could onli meet her after yrs, when we r both grown-up..
wonder hw is she gonna cope wif her life there.
hope everything go smoothly for her in ta strangers` country..
linda**
great ger do hav her great days
she gone for e tym being
11:35 PM
alone* in the rain;
kind of tired at tis pt of tym, but juz cant slp...
work was bad juz nw
felt 2pid thing juz nw tt my whole face turn pale lyk hell when i looked into e big mirror...
i was avoiding wc in work,tink he`s rude...
tt`s all...
gt to c aman ger...
they match!!
at least they understand each others` language!gee
didn`t reali smile alot tis night coz too busy,kind of short of man power,asked to do tis n tt at e same pt of tym, suck!
aniway,right nw in e peak of working..
love being single coz simply hav no tym for another partner due to work...
well, having my pay soon, tink shopping day is juz ard e corner!
woah...::)
gt to rest...
12:56 AM
alone* in the rain;
great day tt start wif bad beginning
van was freak up!
she was so wori of her sch stuffs n lene arrival...
well, things end smoothly when we arrived sp..
saw xue hui,well, she `s nw ful of confident...
van saw 1 cute guy in sp, he happen to b pinpin`s fren....wat a small small world
find van funny today coz she is so interested in loking out for cute guys!
van gt herself sum earring as usual
well, i did get sumthing for myself..
1 medium-sized bag as well as 1 handbag frm hula&co...
failed to prey on aniway nice seashell necklace which is quite sad...
but i gt myself sum nice necklace...
failed to get sum tops n jeans in town coz it was quite late already
:)
woah woah wee!
gt to meet stepfi..
well,it` been 3yrs tt we last meet in international camp when i`m still in sec2..
she din reali change much..she looked almost e same..:)
life is always full of tears n laughers, n i simply wish tt mine will b full of tears in laughters...
:)
fren r leaving mi 1 by 1...slowly n quietly, they left no traces for mi to keep...
hurts
11:15 PM
alone* in the rain;
kind of real tiring tis tym round...
took over con`s shift, so started at 7am...
well, crowded!
e cafe was damned crowded till vau had sum guests there having their breakfast..
finally when it`s 3pm, i met up wif abbi for lunch in e nearby hawker centre...
well, it`s disappointing,though tis dish i had was recommended ...
gt a shower tt made mi shivered for long..
when `s dinner tym, at 6pm,
it`s crowded again..
well, it ended early enough for us...
but we were all gt tored out,
i`ve nv work so busy b4.
zack was crazy yst..
i was asked to do tis n tt..
abbi seem to hav nth to do...
gt surprise during work...
gt to c my cousin, n ex-boss n staff.. :)
my legs was so tiring...
hurts!!!!!
worked till 11pm...
but for money sake,fine......
3:49 PM
alone* in the rain;
holding on to my hp, wondering if i`ve already let go of him...
he`ll b going to chalet near my hse,kind of rare coz he lives real far frm mi...
aniway,1st tym out wif theinesh was lyk...
he lyk to pinch mi!n poke mi!
making mi ticklish...
went for coffee,mocha frappe was bitter lyk raw coffee...
but halnut crunch taste nt bad...
he msged n asked y i din reply...
i`m hiding away...
away frm u...
i`m kind of lyk using theinesh as a excuse...
sorry
11:34 PM
alone* in the rain;
was chatting on msn den my fren asked if i mail in my enrolment form
well! i hav nt!
went thr my form n realise tt i still nid my parents` signature...
oh man!
tink i`m nt going into tt course of mine tis yr...
well, gt to noe tt e deadline was yst..
tis is bad, real bad!
called up parents at their workplace n buzz them wif qns...
well, gt to get ready to meet up wif fren..
2:33 PM
alone* in the rain;
went into hafiz condo n swim as well as sun tan,
suppose e sun doesn`t lyk mi,
so u can guess tt there wasn`t much sun there 4 mi to tan myself,
i`m kind of discolourise!
:)
eyes seem to b real swollen after last nite crying
gt myself sum lettuce n low fat stuff,hope cooking mak mi feel better,
afterall, i do enjoy cooking...
well, gt into quarrel again
tis tym round wif sis again...
gt insulted frm her,it seem lyk everyday life wun lack of ours quarrelling...
11:16 PM
alone* in the rain;
nice lunch in juz noodles, ate tt soft -shell crab
gt to noe y crab gt tt soft shell, kind of cruel,dun tink i wana eat already
jun wei seem to b unhappy wif attacking mi verbally
kind of piss-off.....
well, mayb he`s juz himself...
discover tt he lyk 2 look at ger, well, i enjoy looking at ger wif him!
:)
juz when we were on e way back,i gt real piss-off when him by 3 incident...
lying his hand on my shoulder n hurt it...
DAMNED!
it`s painful
he`s behaving lyk a pervert!!!
nxt, after entering train, he act lyk a child, pointing at my eye level, directing mi when to move in...
HELLO!
tt door is e nxt entrance of e next stop, obstructing e entrance is all u wan izzit?
den i move in e rear....
he pushed mi when i wasn`t holding on to anything...
alomost fall but didn`t..
kind of irritated!!!
it`s not fun neither it interest mi
thank for being rude to mi tis whole trip!
well ,went to tak passsport sized photo n it doesn`t look lyk mi except my mole up there in e pic...
:)
went back to get ready for campfire!
happened to c leon n christospher...
they r going clubbing!
if it wsn`t of e campfire, i`ll sure join them...haiz...
nvm
well, campfire tis tym round was bad, BORING!
zuri,lene n i went ard e new campus...
kind of real dark n gt tt fear in mi..
happen to walk on e path across e fish pond
wow!
saw tis long eel... as long as my hand...!!!!!
big!
well, gt hm n had a quarrel wif sis
bitch is wat came out frm her mouth, no respect frm her, gt scolded by parents bcoz we were too noisey
well, simply becoz she was shouting at mi for all e while, i was juz talking to her lyk norm
she acted pity when both parents came out,
simply hope she will disappear frm my life!
i reali hope tt!
she took everything for granted!!!!!!
well, gt tt idea of moving out in my mind...
i believe tt will happen real soon if nt i think i`ll commit sucide....
i juz wan to b happy... tt`s all,nth much
seem impossible when i hav such i kin!
11:59 PM
alone* in the rain;
woke up in e morining,well,ishld say it`s noon time when i woke up.rather tired 4 mi
woke up, called up mum to ask if she sees my CFP return letter,i remembered correctly that i left it on the table. she said she didn`t see tt letter.
i went searching in e rubbin,kind of disgusting.found tt right in e bin.
ASSHOLE!
who threw tis away. got mad coz i could actually find such impt letter in the rubbin?
my mood wasn`t there for 2day
`tt him` got home and shouted at mi for locking e door?
well, if i wana lock,you tink i`ll let u enter into e hse n let u shout at mi for thing i didn`t do?
called up mum again.this time i wasn`t realli in tt kind of awesome mood--------- MAD!
shouted at e fone behind mum couldn`t hear mi.
help her y she locked at door
`that him` shouted at mi once again
well, dun i hav e right to b angry??
i`m human being too
for wat mum had done, he shouted at mi.
for wat mum cant hear clearly,he shouted at mi
DAMNED!
is shouting, all he can do?
wanted mum 2 get mi a new hp wif line?
kind cheaper than prepaid card, and think it`s time 2 put my long-term no. in e poly enlroment form.she said juz put down e hse no.
~HELLO~
you wan mi to put 678...... which is under hp no.?
kind of very big joke
not funny but !!!!
gt really angry wif mum`s ignorance& his stupidity
right nw crying in tears of anger& depression
Pity myself
envy others
everyone at least have someone to concern& understand you
not for mi
`concern` is nt a word for my mum towards mi.
`care` nt a word frm every1 in e family,in a way they treat mi.
i juz wan to leave tis pathenic way.
out of tis awlful truth.
even if e only solution
is for mi to die, well, i dun mind
coz it`s is simply too harsh for my emotions n body.
i hate my life in tis family
2:20 PM
alone* in the rain;
my 1st pay day!
kind of happy, gt abt 140, going to gif mum $40...
mr william smile tis time round, n it`s vibrant!
cool huh?( he nv smile for e 1st 4 day since i start working there)
was called glass queen coz i was in e kitchen wiping e water globen
made a mistake tt i took e bill for another table for e table behind the station.
fool ard wif fren lyk abbi n darius...
drank coffee made by darius,too bad he didn`t noe how to mak mocha!(my fav!)
well, when my fren dun,i do!
made sum mocha out of epresso n chocolate powder...
well, it taste real bad! PUKE PUKE*
released early by william at 10pm instead of 11... kind of happi coz got to do thing slowly b4 we come out for supper in e kitchen
gt sum nice tiny cake hm for my sis n mum
i suffer frm runs,i suppose tt`s e effect of tt PUKing mocha??hHa
well, call up jun wei, n i suppose i sound abit loud...
aniway,i m not angry wif him at all...
juz confused!!!
sumtime irritated by his action...
he do things tt is wonderful, but at e same time, he made mi doubt him...
wana ask him wat` s he trying to do!
** e runs vv hurting my ass!**
hee
2:27 PM
alone* in the rain;
ate nth much for breakfast, ate 5 mini kind of bananas,kind of cute-looking
received a msg frm linda tt dinner meeting is called off...
kind of disappointed coz reali wanted to hang ard ard my frens,had been a long tym i din get to c them :/
called up van for a chat, she asked mi along for dinner in bedok interchange
wif charlene, we ate tis 3 dish,kind of not bad...
went ard looking 4 hp which i gotta buy soon...
after tt,went down to simei for a coffee drink in starbuck...
we had a nice chat wif e presence of ms sakinha sitting 2 tables away frm us...
chat into e history of whole war II
cause of hitlor(wrong spelling)
he`s a interesting figure in history,thank to van, admitted ta her history is indeed worth a distinction! :#
gt back hm at ard 11, well, tried to put in a tag board for my blog, yet,tink i`m rather 2pid n made a mess out of it...
relationship wif my mum is always ON_OFF_ON _OFF...
kind of sad for tt, i juz wana sit down n chat wif laughter together wif her...
tink tt`s kind of impossible...
2:59 PM
alone* in the rain;
wow!
real tired cos i onli slept 4hr for e nite b4...
it`s my 1st tym working morning shift!
nice!
coz i gt to c hw bright e morning could b...
breakfast out in e balcony wif greenery in ur sight,tt`s real relazing for mi to spend my morning....
mayb tt `ill happen after i get married?
haha
abbi broke her 1st glass today, n she was reali freaking panic !
poor thing, my ger
gt to meet e head chef today---jason
first sight, i thought he is sum kind of construction working, he looked lyk ah beng
HELLO, juz 30, n he`s e head chef!
no ah beng can do tt, well, i admit he`s kind of handsome other than ryan.. grin!
gt to work wif theinesh today,he lyk to poke my side, kind of nice eyes he had...:)
1st tym working wif darius as well, he`s always looking for thingy to do coz he`s juz too bored
razak gt mi to clean thingy up!well, alrite, i got to observe items n stuffs there... :)
well, helped alex fong n a thank u came upon, he sounded well, kind of cartoon... haha
after work, after meal in subway, met up wif junwei again...
accompanied him to town for library book
tried eclair there, n i rate it 3/10
nt reali nice at all....
my stomach wasn`t in gd condition, not hungry, dun feel lyk eating but i noe i nid to eat...
finally settled down to food, tried e thai mango salad
tink of new taste,bit of funni. i tried to appreciate e taste of it... :)
but sumhow made he angry, i din know wat i did wrong...
in e end, i ended up not wanting to talk ti him,
i was lyk tolerating wif him all e while, he lyk to show him his middle finger!
HELLO!
wat was tt suppose to mean?
act cool or wat? wana shut my mouth out?
halfway in during e meal, he doesn`t want to tok to mi
well, e reason b4 was dumb!
well, i hav no mood to explain wat....
i kept quiet till i reach hm..
quarrelled wif my mum...
tried to explain to her abt e poly check-up, she suppose any clinic provide this service... well!
HELLO!,it`s stated!
pissed off!!!
2:48 AM
alone* in the rain;
went out wif junwei today
accompanied him to buy parents for his cousin n god-sis...
kind of nice shopping wif him coz he brought mi to millien walk whereby i`ve nv been there b4...
he bought 2 cool cute candles n 1 necklace...
i happened to c tis cart stall wif seashell necklace!
WHATEVER!
i`m suffering frm low cash, so y bother to look at things i cant afford to buy...
kind of sad tt mmt...
gt into cab heading towards changi village hotel... i`m gona b late for work
n wat made ta worse was e taxi...
he went 1 big whole long way to reach tt place...
but, it`s okie coz zachary , e supervior of e day din reali talk to mi abt tt...:)
yea!
gt my name tag today!
kind of reali happy!
staffs there were mocking my name n making fun of it,well, it`s okie anyway
today, i learnt sum new thingy, HOSTING!
well,kind of real nervous when i gt to handle those walk-in-guest...
soon,i noe wat to do n all thank to poh lim n zhiying...
pple there i`ve met r nv mean...
tt`s so great
!!!
it`s kind of real bored being hostress coz u hav no1 to talk to,esp when there isn`t any guest...
well, after work, i still hav to go meet jun wei 1st coz he is in e chalet which is in-front of e hotel...
kind of real smoky n i reali hate tt....
reali to e core... e whole rm was air-conditioned wif smoke in it...
WOW!to my surprised!
jun wei gave mi tt necklace he brought, kind of nice but i took a close look at it n realised it`s easy to break as well....
suppose i`m not going to wear it often
reached hm in smoky-stinked shirt...
3:29 PM
alone* in the rain;
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