3:24 PM
alone* in the rain;
well, gt to watch movie wif my frenz, YEA! rite, grp of fren i should say!
played 2 game of tables ball...
leon
nicholas
vanessa
arnoald
zhiwei
alan
charlene
abbi
tis 9 of us altogether...
kind of hapi to c nicholas!
well, he`s juz my fren,
gt in luv wif his new hairstyle!
so CUTE!
reali nice on him, nw he looked mor lyk a baby monkey!
:)
tt movie `e eye 10` kind of funny n scary
van was there pulling my hand over to her side across arnoald... freaking hell!
van gt to hid ard when it`s scary as well as abbi could do it wif zhi wei
i was sitting in between abbi n arnoald
so they r kind of busy, i could juz shout in myself...
tt`s horrible coz when it`s so scary,there`s no arms to grab, althought i watch in a grp but i awlfully felt i`m juz alone there in e seat....
movie`
5 of them were juz too playful
gt themselves into troubles
one by one, gt into bullshit
n 1 by 1 get to care for each other for more they do
had a full dinner in van`s place...
kind of too full...
hee,guess i`ve eaten too much
:)
gt a drink frm starbuck den made my way to haifz hse..
it`d been such a long tym i din get to c him... kind of miss him...
he failed to attend sch due to his bad health...
well, his room was lyk not bad but kind of messy...
gt to chat wid him abt his n my future n his coping of sch work...
tink sunday i really nid to help him wif his study in e afternoon...
tak care of brother..
well,kind of tired today coz i did sum housechores today, mopping e whole hse after sweeping them clean n pan....
gt to turn in b4 my mama nag.. nite to all
3:44 PM
alone* in the rain;
real cool today!
went off wif my gerfren- siow wen..
cool, went into CK to buy sumthing
BOXER for her dear...
she seem so shy,well, basically i dun mind..though e sale assitants were looking at mi wif kind of funny, i dun really gif a damn..
well, i dun hav a honey or dear to gif boxer to though i wish to!
:)
after purchasing tt, we made our way to marina square..
part of it r under upgrading process,so there is reali limited shops to go into
we ate our lunch in long john silver...
i was using knife n fork to eat my sweet corn! kind of too juicy!
after tt, took a great form of excerise.
went frm shops to shops to look for her sport shoes wif a budget of $80.. b4 tt, i brought myself a halter at 37degree..kind of nice design though it looked lyk ancient under grament
!
after walking for quite a long long, got a rest in delifance in suntec...
got tt coffee elcair n latte...
went over to tm for more choices of sport shoes...
she spotted a nice nike sport shoes,asked e sale assitant,all we noe was tt her size wasn`t available... ask if there is any other branches which hav tt pair wif bigger size... all they siad was NAH NO
we tried our luck in east point outlet
WOW!
WOAH! saw nick yeo.. he looked kind of great in ta uniform?? gee
we got her size in tt outlet!
cheers!
she was so happy ,afterall, she bought all she wanted, boxer for him n shoes for herself...
she`s kind of thoughtful n simple-minded....
felt relaz wif her...
hope she n him will last real long.. all e way GER!
1:22 AM
alone* in the rain;
went to ubin island wif my fellow guides...
cum new faces i saw... friendly they were... felt no barries wif them... kind n cheerful soul were wat i c n companied!
found out new stuffs in tt island...
herbs n plant tt i had nv ever took notice of...:)
kind of fun morning wif them
e jetty was grealy upgraded for e sake of tourim in spore... tt`s clever of tourist board of spore!
after tt,lene,bong n zuri as well as mi including ms sakinha went over to TM`s seoul garden for a buffet treat fm teacher..
great !
well! vv full, bong ate twice of wat i ate, she`s great!
i was puking full!!!!
great tummy!
after tt,met up wif siyuan,HE~S ACCOMPANY TO BUY MY COURT SHOES!
well, he gt a new hair cut! kind of short..
SIYUAN! "ur hair is going to grow okie? dun worry too much! cheer up!"
he`s a great fren! giving opinion when i looked at sumtym tastless...!
we walked abt 3hr in tt small warehouse..
went to buy sumthing frm e supermarket den b4 i leave for hm, gt to spend him hm 1st...
well,gt to slp early coz i`ll meeting up wid siow wen tml!
woah!
great!
it`d been a long tym tt i`ve not seem her...
meeting up at 12noon,cool.. she wana buy sumthiny though i din noe wat thing was tt gonna be...
hope it`ll b a nice day tml!!!
thank alot my fren-siyuan
2:29 PM
alone* in the rain;
miss van n lene out for tt metro sale, nid 2 shop for a court shoes for my job which i will b starting to work on tis coming tues.. i was sleeping then when they called mi
stayed at hm e whole day n slacked ard, eating things tt r within my sight...
wow! my tummy is lyk!!!!
looking for sum1 to go out wif mi to e metro sale... haiz...
hate being alone...
looking lyk a pathenic idiot down e streeet.. nah, tt wun b mi...( i hope so)
3:21 PM
alone* in the rain;
gt up n met abbi,interview for her n orientation for both in VILLAGE..tt`s a four star hotel in changi village
kind of WOW for tt 4 stars hotel... got to noe tt there`s 25% discount for us when we go there for meal...
kind of excited to work them,learn mor thing n chances to stay away hm...
well! i went to sum warehouse sale wif abbi... kind of great!
i spent quite alot!
brought sum lingiers n clothles...
well,felt so great afterall...:)
i juz wan to b mi...tt`s all...
2:00 PM
alone* in the rain;
gt up at 7 to gif wake up call for fren
went to tp,halfway through we saw van n lene..
appealed for food science n nutrition as well as tourism n hospitality managment....
ate sum stuff in design food canteen.. nice soup..
abbi,bong n mi gt to spilt up wif van n lene coz bong juz wan to go np 1st n e other heading for sp..
i followed bong coz i tink she`ll b alone..
i felt irriated when bong juz wan to go nyp.. i juz wan to wait for ming to come coz i already called him to rush down..
damned!
would a little waiting cause death...
juz went off n apologiesd to ming,i wasn`t in a mood to go nyp,but i`m a word of woman...
frm dover to yo chu kang...
real long.. i wasn`t in a mood to say anithing,juz deep in thought for things...
gt down at yo chu kang station, saw tt bus tt is stated in e jae booklet,so we juz hopped on it...
i said abt e direction board to nyp,which was actuali frm e direction which e bus is going...
she supposed we will reach them...
i kept in silence n waited to c...
i wasn`t reali in gd mood coz wat`s bong doing?
i`m human,nt dog!
not sum1 who mus listen!
i hav my own opinion...
we dropped sumwhere far frm nyp n took bus back 2 e interchange...
managed to reach nyp but 13min late for appeal...
damned!
my bus fare is running down,waste of tym,waste of money,juz to mak myself to feel down or angry or watever shit?
reach hm eventually,gt into quarrel wif mum n sis..
sis juz throw a little trautum when she knew i`m using a wardrode...
mama stood up for her, i wasn`t reali happy of hwo she treated mi
i did all e housechore yet sis din...
wat had she done to contribute even a little to e family?
ma juz reprimanded mi,tt`s all..
i throw a little trautum n gt tt frm her...
I`M A HUMAN! I HAVE FEELING!!!!
i was in tears back in my room...
i HATE tis family...
reali...
no 1 care abt of i feel,when i care so much of their feeling n was hurt by them...
tink tis is reali 2pid of mi...
a damn shit life of mi....
3:39 PM
alone* in the rain;
argh!
woke up at 9 am when i slept at 3am ...
6 hr of slp seem reali little for mi to spend e all day...
i din wake up by my own, i was actuali woke up frm e ringing of hp n so on..
it`s so annoying but sumthing is there waiting for mi..
my posting to which poly i wil b spending my 3 yrs there
i`m reali sad, disappointed... no1 could understand how much i felt coz i hid them well...
having to know abt my posting,tt wasn`t e worst...
e saddes thing was vanessa shouted at me...once again...
planned to mak our way down to sp wif vanessa n charlene as well as bong..
but vanessa n lene went without mi n bong...
wanted van n bong to meet up coz bong said she missed van,which included it had been much a long tym tt they din get to c each other..
i`m down
well,so i spent my day wif bong ,going sp followed by ngee ann poly...
took e wrong bus n had to delay my meeting wif darius
supposingly,all 3 of us,vanessa n lene were supposed to come along,but they said they weren`t in a mood to go...
so wat`s e promise of going them made by vanessa...
darius is kind of gentleman... more of vv gentleman among all my male fren.. he`s a gd fren to-be...
after sum shopping to cheer mi up, met up wif vanessa to hav sum drink down in starbuck...
though,it seem okie,deep down my sorrow hart,i felt lyk crying out loud!
3:57 PM
alone* in the rain;
juz got up frm bed , wash up n got into my friendster acct...
under bulletin board,i saw hester posted up there, i clicked to view
i was too down when i viewed tt...
e saddest part was e memories tt we had together, cracking jokes early in e morning,shopping for groceries in e nearby supermarket,n planning of how to cook e food in e best way...she is sum1 hu enjoy food wif mi, e taste n appeal tt we talked...sumthing which wouldn`t happen anymor...
she is always a sunshine for mi,seeing her was as great as getting present.. nw, she left for malaysia for good,afterall, spore is not where she come frm, going there for studies seem better..
being a independent ger, i`ve gt no worry for her,she would b able to cope thing well as much i wish she could b able...
i miss her so much yet i could onli feel her presence when both of us r online up in msn...
pathenic... yup,there`s no doubt abt tt...
2:40 AM
alone* in the rain;
it seem a fine day for mi today!
got out wif steven for a movie IN GOOD COMPANY...
quite a show but too slow moving...bit of bored but it had a storyline :)
den frm lido, i went to plaze sing...tt was far coz i walked all e way to get there...
i was excited to c daryl! so excited coz it had been such a long tym tt we meet...
well, or shld i say tis is our very 1st SINGLE date... ( we r juz gd fren )
i could still remb hw i got my very 1st valentine day present when i was juz sec1.. frm daryl!
he gave mi tis cute keychain but i returned to him!
i rejected him....
after then,he got arrange to sit behind mi in class... tt was horrbile, he was spourting all disgusting thing, tis set a impression in mi... nt bad but a awlful 1....
anyway ,b4 we watch SON OF THE MASK at 7... got our dinner in marchive... a great 1
*pizza
*mixed berries waffle wif choco
*hot chocolate
*tsiramisu
*ice coffee
tt was filling!
he got himself a wallet as well as a bag..
walking past Paragon wasn`t great coz tt awesome scent was in e air yet, onli at tt mmt of tym, i could smell tt...
bacisally, raphl cool was going their advestisment down in town, right outside Paragon...
I WANT TT,yet i`m unable too... sad huh?
nvm, well i earn, i`ll get tt... but i juz wan tt badly...
everything was in a rush coz i tink we ate too long... :)
gee...
SON OF THE MASK!
tt was a nice 1....really incrediblely
THE MASK was my favourite during my childhood time....
hope i will get to watch more MASk stuff...:)
got hm by train,met tis cute guy...simply cute....
gt hm wif a great mood, found sumthingy new in my room!
COOL!
tt thing is right nw in my rm??
cant believe wif my eyes...
wardrode!!
my own...
but tt`s a small 1... nvm, i how to mak full use of it...
LUV U DAD!
near ti midnight,when i was abt to end tis blog, brother came hm, tt NS GUY... he look better wif tt clean little round head!
gee
+++u r onli sum1 lyk a normal fren to mi ever since then, u hurt mi without noticing my existence +++
i wasn`t in love coz i c no hope, single was wat i want, sumthing tt wun harm n i could stay alive....
3:30 PM
alone* in the rain;
had been hanging out in town recently, bit of tried of tt, but 1 place is nv bored... mc cafe!!!
today`s abt serious stuff ta sux!went down to town for interview, DFS is where we head for... but,it seem tt it`s hopeless for us....but still gratful towards cathy for introducing tis to us...
got to go back hm juz lyk tis?
nah!
we do noe how to enjoy, got a tasteless passion fruit tea frm mac cafe...
went for shopping at far east...
hope to c my ex sch fren- amanda, it`d been such a long tym tt we hav lost contact.
felt tt van behave differently in front of 2 different genders..is tt her?
after far east,den we ran into our fren wif 2 other gers,cool, he din change at all
den to hereen for marchive... each spent abt 5$
got 2 scoops of ice cream of tt banana wraffle.. :)
tt`s shoik (althought bit of too sweet)
went hm after tt coz vanessa hav her own plan at 8
got leon to job wif mi...
for abt 2 hrs, my ankles hurt!
i suppose tt`s due to insuffient warm ups...
well, felt real good after tt 2hr run... tt`s so refreshing! it`d been such a long long tym tt i done tt... hope i`ll b able to jog which include my ankles r fine...
brother juz went in tis morning, tt`s bad...
mum wroke mi up at 9am, i onli had 6 poor hrs of sleep.. she wan mi to open up her hp, well, i did tt as wat she wan...
found out tt she wan mi to SWITCH on...
tt`s so 2pid of mi...
anyway, it`ll b 2 weeks time tt i dun get to b my brother... by then, he will b bald.. :) cant wait to c tt...:)
tak care ...
4:47 AM
alone* in the rain;
got up at ard 11, wana go back to slp but hav to meet my fren later on for town...
wore a black top wif a skirt so as to brighten n lively my day...
he was late,making us to wait for him, vanessa was bit of fed-up but she gt tt cheer-ups frm mi... vanessa n i met 1 of our fren in e station while we were waiting... he look better or shld i say he was able to bring out good real stuff out frm him compared to last tym..
yup..
met up wid NIC!!!! went for a late lunch wif him despite hw hungry he was...reason behind was tt leon was late.... gt to noe a nw fren, cathy.. nice ger, she followed along wif us for lunch..a 19yrs old who dun hav tt 19yr old face, she look real young lyk 16 or even 15...:)
nic extended his break by himself,frm 1hr to 2hr... went for a game of pool in k pool...damn it! i was wearing a skirt by then, cant reali stretch,so i anyhow play... happen to c my bro n fren hu came to my hse eariler on...
MIND!
my brother is going in for NS tml.. tis is his late enjoyment,afterall , all tough training await for him...
gt a eyebrow pencil frm sasa together wif VAN
felt left out all e while when i was out wif those 2...
felt so bad, loney,depress...
but wat for?
it`ill b okie..
letting them noe abt my feeling, tt will surely affect e shopping mood of their...i`m not any attention, all i wan was fun.. tt`s all...
too bad...
got cathy no.
gt a few lobangs(jobs)
gt afew doubts,so pple lyk van,nic, cathy n leon were on confer...
got to noe hw to go, all tis n tt, felt left out again...
**** damn it, if u wan all e attention! u can have it, well, it include tt u r happy... i`m not any attention seeker but i`m happy... unlike u, sum1 hu dun spare thought for frens... ****
tt`s a horrible remark for my day...")
4:52 AM
alone* in the rain;
today seem to b my last day at downtown f&b banquet...
today ocassion is a weeding dinner... small dinner wif 35 table... but e bride is pretty..:) let alone e bride groom... :)
fancy their frens came out wif e idea of havin rose petals(white,pink and red) on e dinner table was decoration..
cool!
got mistaken tt i`m attached again... i`m not... :)
gt jun wei no. n gave my no.
felt loney n sad... kind of feeling when i left time newslink... tt`s sad...
but i handle them well..
reach hm n logged onto my msn...
finally got to c my fren online.. he wasn`t answering my call lately...
oh!
wat surprise mi was apology frm derrick... well, for e past was e past, sorry wasn`r wat it tak... so it`s okie brother!
felt tt cant a single ger b single?
pples` questions like " r u attached" " u muz b attached!" or how`s r u wif ur guy?"
i simply hav no idea n no strenght to ans tis kind of qns...
god knows...
:)
drank a glass of20% of camus xo... quite tipsy
called ming...
felt better afterall...
it fades...
ZZzZzzZZzzzZzZZzZZZZzZzZZZZZ
i admit i`m a bad drinker...
4:52 AM
alone* in the rain;
wan tis few...
new hp
wardrode
8 tops
4 jeans
2 bags
1 formal slipper
1 short heel
wan sum $ to highlight my hair
paint to paint my room
raphl cool kiwi perfume
well,tink tt will cost alot... scary... got to work real hard to buy them...
sure mum is not gona gif mi any $ to buy them....
it`s jux her....
4:20 PM
alone* in the rain;
was sitting in simei station at ard 3pm, ah bong as late... made my way down to border in orchard... freaking hot but idiotic mi was wearing black jacket n my only n fav track short...think tt`s a 2pid 2 wear ta black jacket coz its such a hot weather. i was sweating so hard, wif my bra bit of uncomfortable... today`s sumhow of windy, not sunny at all,where had e sun gone? grey day!
= rite nw looking for a job
-well-paid
-long term
-nice environment (high expectation i hav? )
went for a jog ard neighbour... happen to meet my ex- staff...cool! miss her alot...
bad thing happen when i reach hm...
quarrel wif mama which concern alot of things... i dun wan 2 a mummy`s ger! comtrolling mi, my life... suffocating!!!
idiotic!!!
really wan to leave tis hm... haiz...
3:58 PM
alone* in the rain;
tt`s e big chihuahua! cool huh? gee
12:40 PM
alone* in the rain;
woah, felt so tired!!! but tis morning n ta day is gona b a great super 1...
starting baking cookies!!!trying out new recipe, kind of risky coz i nv wan my cookies to b puking bad...
*+*+*+*+**+* it went smoothly n nice! cool... well, tink tt new recipes book is kind of can-use...
got myself prepared to meet up vanessa n charlene...
well, they simply look great,felt so inferior when i stood or even walked besides them.. i`m juz too simple for them..
they started quarreling, a unfriendly kind... i stood them stunned,shocked, dumbfolded...
however scary r they, they r still ger,got to noe wat made charlene smile in between the quarrel... a cute guy standing inside a lingiers shop in e basement of far east plaze...
den e 2 gers started it again, tis tym was a pathenic 1...
" he was looking at mi"
" no! he was staring,den i shifted my focus away! den he look at u, i suppose..."
tis 2 ger r juz so cute...
eventually, got to settle down for moderate dinner followed by a movie in lido...
HITCH was e show, tt made all e 3 of us laughing lyk no one business...cute!
suddenly felt i want to b attached...i`m lyk a child lost in damn crowed street, tt kind of lost feeling,sacred kind...
well, nvm... my life still hav 2 go on...
i wun let myself down, i`m born to b cheerful....not frownful...
:)
3:59 PM
alone* in the rain;
well, jae thingy is simply too jam! so slow... they really got to extended,idiots lyk mi hav not register for my course... went in to login den failed to, tried a dozens tym but till e same...
damn!!!
got hard tym deciding choice after choice...tt`s bad...
well,choose biomedical,accountancy,banking n fincianl services ect...
hope i can register asap b4 4 of march...
felt so helpless nw, sitting in front of ta monitor lyk a idiot...
9:36 AM
alone* in the rain;
m i pretty? come on! say tt...
12:33 PM
alone* in the rain;
i wasn`t as excited or worry lyk e rest, i found there was nth to worry abt, e result is out, e outcome of 4 yr education in sch.
lyk as usual, i gathered wif my ex-class... they r oso so on!
:)
we got sum pizza treat in see yang hse...wow! i miss tt scene whereby all these pp i noe for at least 2 yr come together n chat and enjoy,well, there is oso sum1 to misbehave or entertain in different ways...loud laughters wif slow moving atmosphere filled e big living room.how i wish tis mmt of tym can stop forever, wif us smilng n laughing lyk nobody business....
but nxt mmt was tears..no mor laughters....
1st person in my class cry upon reeiving her result... she failed her eng, but the rest were lyk 2,3,1...felt sad for her, but it almost alert mi,coz i`m those who barely pass eng..
den i saw my best fren, ah bong... she stood in slient,ignoring mi,any1... no1 noe wat`s tinking, it hurt... not because of being ignoring but the silent she stood in... tt fear mi most...
i rushed back the chair n sit in front of my teachers, e 2 hu spend theri 2 yr teaching mi..den i peeped at the slip... YEA!!!!!!! my eng ... i failed to fail... :)
my Os result were much better compared to prelim... all 3 subject frm f9 to c5...
i`m glad for ta improvement but kind of regret for focusing too much of my tym in relationship in the past...
anyway, there is alway plan after everything... i went to cafe cartel n made a fool of myself... well, tt place dun sell prata but i was lyk all e way pronouning prata as pasta... all my fren was lyk mocking at him... nvm, at least they could laugh whereas sum dun even hav e reason to...
den we moved down to east point starbuck for cup of coffee.... well, i was lyk asking them if they wan any dessert after the full dinner in cafe cartel..
we were still worrying of which course to go to so we were lyk flipping thr the jae booklet...pp thought we were looking thr the menu frm starbuck.. :) hahaa
we chatted till late at night till starbuck closed...still wondering hw ah bong feels... tak care ger, there is always path if 1 path is closed for u.... cheer up...
dad or mama,none of them praise mi , no comment , they dun seem to b interested in tt...
damned! sis got A1 for chinese, compared to mi elder sis of hers,even when i retake, i still got b3... damned!!!!!!
nvm... wat is done is done... :_
3:57 PM
alone* in the rain;
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