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Sunday, July 25, 2004

wowowowo! realise tt it`d been quite sum tym i`m away frm it... keke... okok... i`m back again...recently happen lot lot lot of thing worz...hmmm,at tis mmt of tym i`m feeling reali unwell... physically n emotionally...
HAIZ
18dayz ago....i met my ex in a bus... vv qiao wor...i was always eager 2 noe news abt him...tt dae, we met up 4 dinner...we was toking n chatting...then he sent mi hm...@ tt pt of tym,my unfading memoriers came...it`s lyk a repeat frm a vcd...e venue,e actor n actress is e same..haiz...i was shocked tt he`d been single for 1,5 yrs le....i was thinking tt isnt it e tym tt i broke up wif him(abt 1.5 yrs oso mahz)... i was real shock!
den he asked mi up on 8/8 for a firework at esplanence( spelt wrongly le la)... we went wif my frens...it`s so nice so wonderful!!!! ( i meant
e firwork !) after firework, i met up wif my frens> siow wen n teck hui... she kana gastics n need food quite adly... den teckhui was vv wori n we went abt to buy food... e process of teckhui buying food for siow wen n she getting well made mi felt tt actually luv can b vv sweet de...haiz..but too bad, i`m too hurt in my hart 4 wat had happen to mi....
tt nite, he sent mi hm, he asked if he can patch up wif mi,i went thr deep thoughts> i told him be 4mth b a test to c if we r compatible bahz... meanwhile he wasnt sure if it`s juz infatuation or luv for wat he felt abt mi...but he said he will wait for tt 4 mth to cum... tt`s wat he said to assure mi...i felt he`s juz e guy 4 mi... : )
everything was going well...untill 1 dae i thought i was wif my male bball in library... i offer my help to tutor him as his math reali not up to standard worz... den frm tt mmt onwards...whenever i sms him,no reply! mayb i did sumthing real wrong..haiz...it`s lyk we r getting further n further...
den on 22nd aug> chi valentine dae... we went 4 a jog at nite...it was real great to c him ( coz 2week nv c him le~ miss him much much) i asked y nv reply my SMSes...all he said was play `missing in action` game...LAME...tis onli mak mi worry abt him...well.it`s alrite aniwae...i get 2 c him n he`s alrite den ok le... : D
after e jog, i fall sick... reali sick!!!but wat strike mi e most was on 24/8... i went to my friendster n accept his adding of mi into his friendster... then, i`m alway hav gt e habit to look thr pple testimonial...i read thr him...HAIZ... his fren was commenting on how gd he treat his gf> devoted guy... all i knew was tis> he lied 2 mi! ( watever 1.5yrs fo being single are all sham!) at nite, i call him... i asked him... he told mi he hav his last relationship was last yr...as well as his gf in friendster testimonial was his xiao lao po...haiz...
tt dae, i couldn`t slp though i eat a `sleeply` medicince...he was wat`s on my mind...
(i hav lost u once,i nv wan 2 lost u again...but his lie made mi felt tt he`s no different frm other guys...guys hu lie,hu lied 2 get trust frm ger...he was e 1 was i have been tinking for such long while even when i`m in a relationship... nw, i realised it`s juz inflatuation tt he had 4 mi...i`m such a fool! for tis while,i keeping a liar in my mind! haiz...i hope i misunderstood him,it seem so hard for mi to convince myself tt it`s isn`t true but trust for guy isn`t juz there...)
right nw listening to `she will be loved` by maroon 5...hu will b luf by him?certainly `she` isn`t mi...
hw much i hope i could confide all my thoughts 2 sum1 ...a fren...but it seem im possible for mi coz giving chance 2 pple to understand u oso gif them chance to hurt u at e same tym... i doubt ani1 could understnad hw i felt nw...felt real bad including my state of sickness...haiz...y???
Y R U E SAME WIF OTHER GUYS> U BIG LIAR!!! U HURT MI AGAIN TIS TYM....

1:24 PM
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Friday, July 16, 2004

wee... i`m back!!! keke... recently lots of thingy happen to mi n my mind... gets so messy de....
suddenly felt tt frens is e most impt thingy at tis mmt...
haiz... recently my last yr memories haunt mi again!!!well, 1 thing i shld hav made in my mind by nw> dun luv again coz it hurt nt e same but even mor... n i nv hav e chance 2 reali luv him, nv... till nw... it`s still a nv....so i wun gif tis friednship up for LUV....haiz

1:24 PM
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Friday, July 09, 2004

yoyo...
hmmm.... todae is so messy dae.... hmmm.... ex came to look for mi.... ex came to ask for patch... haiz... but do ani1 noe tt my broken hart need to b patch back oso??? haiz

3:56 PM
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Friday, July 02, 2004

harLow...
hmmmm.... todaz klassmates went 4 `o` level chi oral liao... die!!!! i taking tml worz..... scare scare de... geee.... i alwae speak 1/2 chi 1/2 eng de... dun will pass wif flying colours or not leh.. hopefully i will bahz....
ermXxx... ju went played bball.... haiXxx.... my lously skill deprove till e WOW(worst of e worst ) le.. haiz... gt to work hard hard le.... :)
tink i m slacker all e way till my pant drop... gee... jkjk de... but i reali slacker till so badly... haiz... but i will tak tis challenge worz... I WILL!!!!friends out there!!!!watch mi out worz...geee

9:49 AM
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Thursday, July 01, 2004

yoyo...
2dae is e 3rd dae of skool le worz... keke... well... duno y i still blur blur in klass de... my klassmate ask mi qns, i looked at dem den tak a long tym to react to them worz... RETARDED!!!!!!!!!!keke
MmmmM.... 2dae after math remedial i went 2 played bball.... keke... i even taught my juniors hw to guard well worz... keke... but i already lously liao... teach them... dey will worse than mi worz... oppsss... shouldn`t hav done tt.... after tt, i sat aside to watch e boys played bball... well... nw i find e real happiness... BBALL worz.. gee... at first play n teach my junior... all is laughter worz... gee... laugh lyk siao ger ger de... c boys played oso shoik worz... nt i prevert c them play... i onli obversing hw they use their skill n speed... sum played till vv swift de worz... nw i have laughter... but at e same tym... still wondering y pp wan enage in brg lyk wat i did last tym... yy??? i duno leh... gee

9:49 AM
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